4th Weight Watchers Weigh in!

This is exciting & scary because I did very well this week! At least for me thinking about how last week was 2 pound loss that it would be a little less or around that same number.Well, shows what I know!

• This week I lost 7.6 lb's :]
•  Down to 299 lbs! 
• My Total Loss: 20.6 lbs!

Haha it was funny I came into the meeting before anybody & the leader was in the front, so I was just going to get weighed in the front. No problem, I got weighed in the front...(at this point I hadn't seen the scale numbers *not expecting anything special*). The meeting leader says "Wow, let's go to the back and check if that's right". Still not knowing what it was in the first place go to the back & weigh in again. I was thankful since I would sincerely like to know how I'm doing. I'm still standing there looking at 299.8 (OH! That means UNDER 300...uhh yes please, that was my summer goal before I get back to school.  College is starting back up in about 6 weeks! ) & not reacting at all. haha I don't think I realized till she said "Wow, you don't seem surprised or excited!"
- haha anyways, I was of course but it just took me longer than usual to realize what just went on :P

This is how I felt inside!

1st of all I'm scared because I don't know what I did differently this week. * Other than running out of Arizona tea & having to just drink water. BUT!!!- even when I did have Arizona I made an effort to fill half or more of my cup with water. I'm going to look at that more, since that's all I have to go on for now.  I'll look back at my tracker and see what I did differently without realizing maybe!?


Now I just need to keep myself from expecting anything for next week.I'd like to keep from setting myself up for disappointment.

On with the journey

+ The gym was great today. Since it was a pretty stormy afternoon there were more people than usual. I see this cycling class going on *looks kinda intense* & I'd like to try that one of these days before I get back to school.

3rd week weigh in!

This week at my weigh in I went down 2.6 pounds  totaling 12.6. *& yes I'm counting the .6 haha! I don't know exactly how long it's been since I was out of the 300's  but the idea of being out of them :) THAT would be awesome!

Disney is the ultra happy place & any amount lost feels pretty great!  

Now that I've lost 2 this week I feel like this will be the average from now on & that is just fine :} but I'll admit it was cool to have those numbers the 1st few weeks.

It's been getting a little harder. I hate what I look like now & my mom brought up how I haven't seen any of my friends from home since I've been back. I've been home for 8 weeks. This has been a thing with me for a long time , I'll admit I don't feel like I'm worth hanging out with. To sum it all up my self-esteem is close to none existant.


Today seemed more like a bump in the road.

1.) woke up around 8. :)
2.) made myself some egg whites & whole wheat toast *with mushroom & onion! :)
3.) fed my fish :)
4.) ended up in bed in my gym clothes.

all slumberland & no workout makes wallflower a sad girl

I SLEPT from 10-ish to frink'n.... 4 in the afternoon! wow THAT can't happen again.
& this is after a good night's sleep about 8 hours. 15 hours of sleep no gym,no nothing.

I know I don't have to go to the gym everyday & I don't. I think I'm more dissipated in myself because I ended up sleeping instead & I was planning on going. Self sabotage - not worth it & that is what it felt like- to me at least.

Goodnight!

-Wallflower