Saturday, July 27, 2013

Weigh-in update!

I'm still using my phone to post. For now it's just easier.  My Internet keeps logging me in and out! ahh! 

I went to my Ww meeting this morning and the leader wasn't there ( we had a sub).. But my friends from Ww that have been busy & one has been sick for a month! I feel much better having these two back in the meetings with me. 

Another yummy looking breakfast idea! 

269.2 was my weight this week!
She calculated -2 lbs but I calculated back home that its -1.6 rather... 
Ah! It confuses me so much when they mix up the numbers. 

Hope everyone has a great weekend!
It's been raining all week here -

Wednesday, July 24, 2013

Super Complain-y blog post! Hooray! / friend issues...

I saw this on instagram & thought it looked like a cool idea... Just need some almonds! 

I wrote an draft entry last night while watching extreme weigh loss! :( I don't see the draft anywhere on my phone app? Anyways... I guess I'll be writing and posting this all at one time.

I had a few things I kind of was having issues with this past week. 

I stayed over a friends house and made it a long weekend since this person lives so far away. 

There have been several times where I come over for the weekend and my friend has pretty much 'double booked'. The situation has turned out to my staying at her family's house babysitting the dogs while they go out for 1.) dinner with her family ( whom I've known since I was in 2nd grade, we are 24 now). 2.) to a dinner ball ((((ate you kidding me?!)
It was awesome watching the family get dressed and ready to leave me home with their dogs.  Both times I had no ore warning or heads up... If I had.. U probably wouldn't have gone that weekend. 

I know most people would think... Wow why don't you say anything?! If you guys have been friends so long why don't you say something? 

I wonder the same thing, I end up feeling so shitty after spending time with this person. They make me feel so insignificant as a friend. 

This journey has actually helped me appreciate myself as a person more. I feel I'm worth more and my time should be spent around time that actually appreciate me. 

I could almost blame myself for not saying anything previously in these situations.. I never even showed that it bothered me previously. I was just so shy and my self-esteem was so low. 

I'm happy to say I don't feel I deserve to be treated like that at all. 

This past weekend I find myself reluctantly going over this friends house. I have very mixed feeling about it but in the end I decide, why it? I m sure this weekend will be fine.

My friend "Alice" wanted me to meet somebody , lets call her "Carol". Carol is  this older women she met recently and has been spending a lot of time with. 
Carol is very sweet and I'm always glad to meet new friends young or old, it's all good. But pretty much what happened was just kind of crazy...

"Alice" and I had gone to pickup "carol". Carol wanted to change before going to dinner, since she is pretty much 65 and expressed wanting to get more comfortable we drove back to carols place for her to change.  She also may have expressed being a bit slower. That's fine, I've always been very patient. 

Alice and I wait downstairs in the car for an hour and a half for carol to change. At that point I just thought it was cute and kinda funny how long it took to get changed. Alice said she knew it would take long... But Alice and I had some time to talk in the car while carol was changing. ( but mostly just seemed like a good time for Alice to check her phone and text)  another not so fun thing that happens often.

We went to a nice little Italian place carol said shed like to go to. I'm always open.. I honestly just wanted the cheapest thing I could get, my bank app wasn't working on my phone:) yay. Haha a slice of pizza was $2.00.  I ate slow because my friends Alice and carol got meals and I am used to sitting and talking for a long time before, during and after dinner. BUT--We sat there pretty much till everyone was gone and the place was close to closing. At this point I'm seeing carol has been THE only one talking, nonstop. She's talented, I've never met anyone who could seamlessly talk for so many hours. 

Then we decided to walk around a bit. We went to a shopping center that is open at night for clubs and bars. We walked around and found a place to sit. I think we actually sat there at around 10 pm.  Can I just say we were sitting with this women for 5 hours. Can I also just say carol was talking nonstop for that many hours. At 1st I was attentive to listen to someone's stories and hear her share some of her life stories. I'm surprised I didn't get her social security number along with her family's. alright so now I'm getting mean... But seriously I don't think I can even accurately describe what those 5 hours on that bench were like.
No joke I feel like I was invisible and was watching Alice and carol on a romantic date. By the end I thought I'd just play on my phone. I NEVER. Ever EVER TAKE OUT MY PHONE TO TEXT , TALK much MUCH LESS TO PLAY A GAME.  I did all of the above. Loudly... Rudely- sighs were made.... comon!!! This was at the 3 and a half hour mark... My patients was running very thin. 
As I'm writing this I'm thinking maybe this doesn't sound like something I should be getting upset over. But who knows. After the night was through. Finally walking back to the car at 2am
Carol finally takes a break talking as we walk to the car. 
I----- miles ahead (not actually) but I'm definitely not walking with the two.... 

Alice and carol try and talk to me as if I had just become un-invisible! Oh.... What?! Did my invisibility run out? Hu. ? Weird..

I pretty much ignore the Heck out of the two. I honestly have the hardest time showing people ( friends, not strangers!)  I'm mad. But I think they got the clue. What bothers me is that they probably had no idea why. 

Just to make this clear and for the sake of lists...
Why I'm mad and very confused about my friendship with "Alice":

Plans are supposed to be plans, I've been double booked several times with this person.

Every time I come home, I'm thankful to be back home.... But also come home just upset because I always feel like I was taken advantage of or just taken for granted.

There are other things that bother me just as much... But they get personal and  more complain-y than this.... If that's even possible. 

Since I've typed this with one finger I apologize for any weird words that may have snuck in here with spellcheck! Haha 

Well that's the end for my friend issues... I guess this is me kinda working out my feelings by putting it all out there. 

Not sure this is a good idea... But there are no names and I don't feel like I said anything that horrible... It's just what happened :/

Thanks - hope everyone is having a great week


Sunday, July 14, 2013

NSV/ Goal Clothes/ Meds? & Weigh-in

An urn flower I found outback
I had to stop an admire the sky for a few.. other than those 5 minutes, the rest of the weekend it rained. Glad I could capture this rarity.
This week=271.2
Last week= 270.8
Start Weight= 320
Total loss=48.8
Alright.. here it goes...
Remember I said my doctor may have warned me about gaining a bit on the pill I started ( waited till monday to start) after my last Dr. Visit? If not- she did. I also figured I better not actually think "I'm going to gain b/c of my pill" or else that may just give me an "oh, well" attitude..
Knowing this I eat as clean as I was when I was losing in past weeks. Stretching, doing little exercises during the day when there were small chunks of time. As Well as going to the gym and swimming for an hour on the say I had gym, but couldn't go because my side was hurting. (BTW The pool was an amazing saviour at that point.)

Alright, well my point is with all the work I put in this week, going in knowing I had new meds... I came out gaining half a pound. Sure it's not permanent... but BOY WAS I SHOCKED. Kinda just stood there wondering...this scale...*squinting* kinda wondering if it was my position on the scale.- yeah right! haha. Maybe I took it hard because I was so close to 50! AH!

I'll keep an eye on it, there are a few alternatives to this medicine so I'll see what happens this next weekend.. or I may ask about some alternatives.

I may have mentioned I found out I'm no longer size 12 shoe! Now I can finally shop for size 10 shoe... I think's been a long while since I've looked in the 10's.  Oh, so many more selections. Hunting for size 11/ 12 was kinda like treasure hunting sometimes.

So when I found out, I was trying on these shoes I seriously just loved, I tried it on in 12. Nope- too big, that happens (no biggie) moving on to 11... no again. I was about to just give up but then I saw the same pair in 10.

Wishfull thinking, I try them on- what a fluke! they fit. I try on almost all the 10's at that point. One after another. It took awhile for me to catch on, seriously! this must be why all most of my shoes back home have been slipping off when I walk. DUH. I think I live on another planet sometimes. Feet shrink, now I know.
Size 10! So proud! Is that silly? Plus these were majorly on sale- win win.

This is not my final goal "outfit" top, but I did order it keeping in mind it may be a little tight. I don't usually buy clothes online but I saw this top and thought "okay, if this doesn't fit when I get it.. I could be a good goal top..". That's pretty much what ended up happening since it was a bit tight around the lower area.. near my hips.
this shirt is a 3x from Forever 21 Plus ( I love love love how all designers run smaller or larger for the "same sizes")
Let's just make it all universal. I don't think  anybody would mind...right?

I love the colllar and the cute buttons. 
So far this post proves something, I seem to be a polkadot fan. Just noticed.

Have a good weekend/ week!

Tuesday, July 9, 2013

My Alarm worked but my computer didn't.. Weigh-In Update

Soo I have my blog alarm... that's all fine it reminded me after my WW meeting. I get on my computer, wifi signal "up and working" but the internet says its not connected...this happens often now that this computer is almost 5 years old. One of my friends who has the same exact computer got hers at the same exact day as I did is having computer problems. She actually ended up needed to purchase a new one because the parts for our model computer is "ancient" in computer land apparently. I finally restarted my computer this morning, once again and I'm not getting an error message!

My lunch at work yesterday. A turkey wrap with a piece of swiss and less than a tsp of  thousand island. Also some string cheese and an Orange.

Weigh-In (Saturday)
This week=270.8 (-1.6 lbs this week!)
Last week= 272.4.2 
Start Weight= 320
Total loss= 49.2 <-- almost 50  
This past week was hard, What helped most was tracking my food. I guess that's why they emphasize tracking! I'm still using an app on my phone to track with my friend.

The other day I was at the Dr.s for an annual check-up. I am starting a pill that "may increase weigh" ummm..... perfect? Ugh. I'm trying to not even thing about it, because it "MAY"not effect my weight at all. I almost wish they hadn't even said anything.

I sat/jumped/ (i don't know what I did) on my bed last night and I felt this weird kind of cramping pain in my side where I my leg upper side of my leg hurts when I walk. :/ I'm thinking it will "work itself out", at least that's what my dad told me.
I was at a friends house and found all these amazing plants..
My planner came in a while ago, but since it was pre-ordered and it  starts in August... I have some time to wait before I start using it.

We went toa neighborhood just outside the beach to watch the fireworks this  year, it was wonderful. My family is almost impossible to get out without an it was a miracle to get them out to see fireworks. Success!

Hope everyone has a good week-


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