Rosh Hashanah & Weigh-in Update!

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Here's to a 

happy & a healthy sweet new year!

Over the holiday's my  this past week I gained 0.4

Last week's weigh in I lost 2 lbs.

So currently I'm at the total loss # of 51 lbs!

Challah and Honey = my weakness. It's just so good. :P This past week was kind of a "everything is up in the air". No meals were planned and I did lose track of actually tracking my food! Oh boy! 

This next week will be some more holidays..but that will be at the end of the week. I'll be going to the thursday WW meetings instead of my Saturday meetings.

I'm getting to a point where I am not sure if I can continue to afford my monthly fees and WW, the gym ( I was lucky and had my dad helping with the gym before, but I'll start paying for that now). I may be making a choice soon. I'm thinking about working out at home. Taking the dogs for long walks..swimming from home.. anything! This may start in September. I also have some workout DVDs. I always forget I could watch some on youtube as well.

Ha! Oh how I wish.... ( love this show & this man!)

For some reason this past week has felt so strange. It's a feeling as if my motivation is low and I have things to do but no energy to do them. Applying to all these jobs for SO LONG and no real positive responses has gotten to me. I think there is only so much a girl can take. BUT! I'm realizing now that this past week has been miserable because I feel like I'm giving up! So getting back on track will probably just help everything come together, food planning, and job searching.

OH! and Tonight!!!! is Rachael v.s Guy Kids cook off :) I've been seeing the ads for it and am so excited!? haha  SO I'll be watching this tonight with my mom.

It's the small things I guess.

Hoping to get everything going again

also trying not to be discouraged 

-Wallflovver

Weigh-In Triggers & a yummy snack!

TRIGGERS :) YAY!
So, applying for jobs has never been fun.. editing resumes and cover letters for each new application has pretty much been my year. A year..seriously. I can't help but feel a bit bad about myself after being unemployed for this long. I've been working freelance but that's not steady (though it is SOMETHING). Hearing back from employers has been a trigger for me in the past. That's what I've been working on the past few weeks.

Paying attention to these stress triggers has been helping me. At one point I found myself going to take a snack break after every job I applied to.  :/ I found that was a trigger also, I realized I got this nervous feeling after sending my applications in and that would be a trigger. KNOWING THAT HELPS. Instead make sure I have my glass of  arizona green tea /water mixture.

This weeks weigh-in :)

This week=268.8 (-2.8)

Last week= 271.6

Start Weight= 320

Total loss=51.2

It's almost time to start looking for new sneakers. My shoes I have now are just a year old and are at that point where you can see my socks right where my pinky toe is. 

Does anybody else's toes fall asleep while on the arc trainer or maybe the elliptical. I use the arc trainer, but I'd assume this would happen on an elliptical as well? It usually happens around the 20 minute mark??? 

This stuff is great! I love the peach flavor. I've noticed these are kinda ...creamier? not as thick as the original Activia. But in a good way. :) Great snack, I sprinkle a little bit  of granola on top. yum

Hope everyone had a great weekend!

-Wallflovver

NSV/ Goal Clothes/ Meds? & Weigh-in

An urn flower I found outback

I had to stop an admire the sky for a few.. other than those 5 minutes, the rest of the weekend it rained. Glad I could capture this rarity.

This week=271.2

Last week= 270.8

Start Weight= 320

Total loss=48.8

Alright.. here it goes...
Remember I said my doctor may have warned me about gaining a bit on the pill I started ( waited till monday to start) after my last Dr. Visit? If not- she did. I also figured I better not actually think "I'm going to gain b/c of my pill" or else that may just give me an "oh, well" attitude..
Knowing this I eat as clean as I was when I was losing in past weeks. Stretching, doing little exercises during the day when there were small chunks of time. As Well as going to the gym and swimming for an hour on the say I had gym, but couldn't go because my side was hurting. (BTW The pool was an amazing saviour at that point.)

Alright, well my point is with all the work I put in this week, going in knowing I had new meds... I came out gaining half a pound. Sure it's not permanent... but BOY WAS I SHOCKED. Kinda just stood there wondering...this scale...*squinting* kinda wondering if it was my position on the scale.- yeah right! haha. Maybe I took it hard because I was so close to 50! AH!

I'll keep an eye on it, there are a few alternatives to this medicine so I'll see what happens this next weekend.. or I may ask about some alternatives.

NSV!!
I may have mentioned I found out I'm no longer size 12 shoe! Now I can finally shop for size 10 shoe... I think's been a long while since I've looked in the 10's.  Oh, so many more selections. Hunting for size 11/ 12 was kinda like treasure hunting sometimes.

So when I found out, I was trying on these shoes I seriously just loved, I tried it on in 12. Nope- too big, that happens (no biggie) moving on to 11... no again. I was about to just give up but then I saw the same pair in 10.

Wishfull thinking, I try them on- what a fluke! they fit. I try on almost all the 10's at that point. One after another. It took awhile for me to catch on, seriously! this must be why all most of my shoes back home have been slipping off when I walk. DUH. I think I live on another planet sometimes. Feet shrink, now I know.

Size 10! So proud! Is that silly? Plus these were majorly on sale- win win.

This is not my final goal "outfit" top, but I did order it keeping in mind it may be a little tight. I don't usually buy clothes online but I saw this top and thought "okay, if this doesn't fit when I get it.. I could be a good goal top..". That's pretty much what ended up happening since it was a bit tight around the lower area.. near my hips.

this shirt is a 3x from Forever 21 Plus ( I love love love how all designers run smaller or larger for the "same sizes")
Let's just make it all universal. I don't think  anybody would mind...right?

I love the colllar and the cute buttons. 

So far this post proves something, I seem to be a polkadot fan. Just noticed.

Have a good weekend/ week!

Wallflovver

Keeping Motivation UP and Weight DOWN!

This week=272.4 (-3 lbs this week!)

Last week= 276.2 

Start Weight= 320

Total loss= 47.6

Enjoying a CLIF bar while also enjoying my favorite tree, it's finally in bloom.  It's funny how the bloom is always on time for summer. Nature is amazing.

Some of my breakfasts from this past week. I've been trying to change it up! I was having the same thing every morning for a while.

Heres to a great week!

Cheers!

It's funny when you eat better for while you actually just feel more energized(No kidding! Right?). It's a start to a great cycle. The intended cycle is to stay motivated from this positive week and continue!

I tracked all my food on an app called lose it. I'm keeping track of my points on the small tracker papers they give you at the meetings. I'm doing both because a friend of mine is also working hard and getting healthy. She asked me to follow along on the app with her. I've mentioned before how I think it's extremely helpful not to do this alone. It's great motivation when you have support of others reaching for the same goals (that goes for almost everything).

I've been spending some sare time working on getting my supplies organized. Next up is my paint box... it's always been a challenge. (Pens down/ paints to go)

My planner is on it's way :) last time I checked it was in Boca Raton and last night Orlando. I'm kinda stalking my journal on it's journey here! It's WONDERFUL! Thank you for the ability to track mail!

Couldn't sleep a wink till about 6 in the morning the other day... this was happening out my window. Do I seriously sleep through this lovely sky every morning?

 OH!!!! OH BOY! last but not least-- Is anybody else overly excited about the new season of Dexter coming back on Tomorrow night!?

Hope everyone has a great weekend!

Wallflovver

Weigh-In Update & a little REWIND

This Week = +1.0 lbs 

Current Weight= 267.6 lb

Start Weight = 320 lbs 

Total Lost = 52.4 lbs

Alrightyyy. Another gain..+2.8 if I add up the total between these last two weeks. So, that's super awesome fun! I do this with a lot of things. I start doing well and the next thing I know is I'm off track and hardly trying (but maybe more like  tricking myself into believing I'm trying?).

I know what works, when I want to have a good week...

So- Why is it so hard to stick with what works and what I know is good?

It feels like self sabotage!

So, I took it back to the beginning  I think I need a bit of a reminder. I'm glad I've saved all this reading material!

I guess that's what they are here for? 

I'm now finishing another booklet ( weight record books). It feels like I JUST started a new one  few weeks ago. I guess 15 (normally 16 in a booklet but one of the boxes were skipped) went by without me realizing. Maybe it's not the best way to go about thinking? But I looked at my 1st record on the booklet I'm ending now... I'm seeing I lost -9 lbs in this entire book. That's with the ups and downs...Averaging = -0.6 a week.

But looking back now, most of those weigh-ins are - not + weeks!

I'm trying to get my PS2 to ply my workout DVDs... I'm not sure what's up with my PS2 :(. I'll workout with one of those this afternoon.

This is why I Love Spare Change!

My grandma gave me a ton of pennies when I was younger....
of course I kept saving and adding to the pennies..

 This past weekend I decide it's time to see how much my collection adds up to!
Plus the drawer I was storing all my jars and coin purses in was being weighed down it was bending the drawer.. (opps!). D:

Aww! look how sad Lady looks D: lol she is so silly sometimes... 

So, next up was the trip to the bank!

the bag was pretty much all pennies so when I got the total of $61.00 I was surprised as heck!

I'm not trying to brag...but wow I'm SO SURPRISED! Very cool.

I kinda have a new love for change now!

Everyone saving jars and coin purses of small change... go chash that in for a good surprise! :)

The poof I made the last time I was feeling crafty!

Finally a picture...

The place I wanted to hang it initially turned out to be a bit of a challenge, so for now it's over my bed :P

last night: lemon chicken with honey mustard sauce and a flax seed crust!

Some had breadcrumbs and some didn't!

these were thin chicken cuts..
I also added some green onion on top. 

This was the honey mustard I used to lightly coat my chicken with.. It was a mixture of this dressing, flaxseeds, and paprika.

Thanks to some  a couple of my friends, I was told to try the Arnold Palmer Arizona. I 1st tried the awesome ¢99 cans (you can get one at a gas station anywhere)  Oh my :} I loved it! It was very refreshing! 

Good Afternoon Everyone!
Here's to a new better week :)
<3 -Wallflower

New Weigh-In Update!

Last Saturday! the 16th

This Week = -2.6 lbs 

Current Weight= 264.8 lb

Start Weight = 320 lbs 

Total Lost = 55.2 lbs

About to head out to the gym! I havn't gone for a while, on friday I felt as though my dad had given me his cold. That afternoon I started feeling my usual self again... uhh???  I'm glad I didn't get a cold, but what the heck!?

This monday one of our family friends had a family member pass, so the funeral was monday. The destination was very far away..so the day was spent traveling to and from. 

I'll be going back now! :)

yay a loss this  (past ) week

Good afternoon

-Wallflower

YAY! -50 lbs :) Weigh-In Update!!

This Week = -2.2 lbs 
Current Weight= 269.4 lbs
Start Weight = 320 lbs
Total Lost = -50.6 lbs

:)

YAY!!! OH MY GOODNESS!!! Hello -50!

It's taken a while to get to this 50 lb. mark but it's finally here. This past week had an interesting twist at the end. It could be a result of weight loss and foods I've eaten in the past. But I'm not going to let this take away from how happy I am about getting to -50 lbs!

Now I'll be dealing with gallstones :{

I was in severe pain the other night, I woke up my parents to take me to the ER.
Turns out I've had gallstones for a while, it just started to come to light the other night! I was taken care of for the night, then went home to get some rest. Before I left the nurse was talking about how I'll be on a Bland Diet till I get the surgery. ( I've looked it up and saw that after the gallbladder is gone, diet will change then also)

The Bland Diet is calling for some very sudden changes in diet...I'll be on the bland diet for at least two weeks. Honestly, I'm  afraid to eat something wrong... it was so panful the other night! So far tonight I've had chicken broth with noodles and carrots. Thankfully I've had time to do more research before grocery shopping this afternoon.

I've found many of the lists of Bland diets & Galbladder diets contradict each other.. or at least there are a lot of items on these diets that get canceled out .
I just got back from the Grocery and found
I was specifically told to drink water (a lot), no eggs, no fatty greasy foods (urmkay!) Less than 3% fat generally, no tomatos, brocoli...raw veggies.

Chicken & Veggie Broths
Pudding (jello brand) & tapioca pudding ( the few puddings w/o egg)
Lean Turkey
Chicken
Mixed Veggies (for soup and rice..)
Rice
Nilla Wafers (ff)
Apple sauce
Bananas
And Fish..
Of course there are other things...but this will be about it for me from what I was told.
Cheerios and I are going to become besties!

All in all I'm trying not to use the pain meds that were given to cover the pain that I may have up till surgery time! ( in about two weeks or so)

Thankfully none of the gallbladder isues are going to interfere with time at the gym! I got in my usual time in at the gym nd then back at home I was in the mood to keep moving. 

Pictures from this past week!

Breakfast from this past week. Special K's Chocolatey Strawberry Cereal   with some Almond Breeze and a banana. :}

Breakfast from this past week. Two eggs and spinach with reduced fat mozzarella on top.

Giving Vanilla Pudding a shot, now that chocolate (and chocolate flavored anythings) are out for a bit :/
Also trying the reduced fat Nilla Wafers...pretty yummy!

I have no idea who's these are.. I asked everyone in our house! Nobody claimed em' :} So I've been using these for a few months.

Keeping my WW key ring someplace I see it every morning :) Infront of my mirror. It's a great reminder of where I am and where I'd like to be.

Hope everyone had a good week!

Good night!

-Wallflower

So close! So excited!!

This Week = -5.2 lbs 

Current Weight= 271.6 lb

Start Weight = 320 lbs 

Total Lost = 48.4lbs

1.6 lb. to go till I hit my lowest and my 50!

Weight Watchers-key rings... 

So, I had no idea people get a key ring for your %10 goal at WW....
I also had no idea there was a key charm for 25 lbs lost! The kay rings came up in the meeting today and I'd realized I hadn't gotten any of those things. Apparently there is another charm for 50 lbs lost, HOPEFULLY I'll be able to add another charm to this key ring next weekend!

..am I the only one who had no idea these existed?

Some pictures from this past week!

My parents went out to lunch one afternoon and decided to bring me back a salad and a  Gyro. The salad is under the Gyro in the picture, it filled up the other side of the takeout box.  This was my first Gyro, and it was really very good!

A recipe I wanted to try from the new 360 booklet! We went to the market, I wrote down what I needed...and never remembered to get the flour :P

YAY! WW Keyring (the keyring = %10 and the Charm= 25 lb. 

Activia has always kinda been my savior!

The Light FF has actually been pretty good :}

This week I tried these Skinny Cow Ice-cream sandwiches, they are  great and low in points.

I keep forgetting... water is my FRIEND! Even though I have to pee more often....
TMI?

ALL IN ALL, this past week was great, I feel like I'm finally totally back on track. I wasn't feeling %100 in the game. 

Hope everyone had a good week!

Good night!

-Wallflower

Happy New Year!!! Update

The things people say suck sometimes, I remembered soemthing someone told me in elementary school...and I guess it kept me from wearing shorts till... now?
I just remember "nameless kid" saying something along the lines of "wow, you are that fat.." and of course he was looking at my knees/legs while saying this. Up till then I had never thought twice about my knees, but I guess they were fat enough to catch his attention?! Soooo that's all it really took for me to be mortified and totally embarrassed about my leggies for what feels like forever!
I'm still not comfortable walking abound outside in these shorts, i actually bought them becauseI don't own a swim suit anymore and have been doing water aerobics with some girls from WW.

The point of taking a picture of my legs was to maybe try and further getting over this "fear", and what better way then to take a picture of them and post them on the internet!

I'd like to thank Target for only having super "short" shorts. I needed shorts recently and found myself thinking about how comfortable (uncomfortable) I am/ have been in my own skin.

So now in 2013, shorts will be part of my wardrobe (shorts that aren't from the mens sports department...at least). Living in Florida.. this is a good thing!

Water Aerobics!
I've done water aerobics in the past, I remember being t my grandmas pool and doing some with her and her friends. This most recent time I went with some girls in my WW class. It was not as low intensity as I remember with my grandma and her buddies. I'm glad this wasn't like how I remembered. It was actually purdy fun! I think I was sweating in the pool? weird feeling.

I wrote this post up several days ago and I have no idea what is taking me so long to post it!

Breakfast!!

Look who decided to take  rest infront of the house this afternoon :)

   Good news!

Now that my camera charger isn't lost :) :) :) :) :) :) !!!!! I can finally upload the pictures I had on there from before! I was all set to buy a new charger on Ebay and the last thing I do before heading over to the computer was find my camera charger. I KNEW IT! I thought I'd find it after I ordered it though.

Happy 2013 everyone!!

Wallflower

Weigh In Update(s)

AHH!
Aside from not blogging D:
I've been very productive the past few weeks.
I'm working on my portfolio for a specific job... I'll be applied by the end of this month!

{Nov,24th } LAST WEEK= -1.4 lbs 

Current Weight= 276.6 lb

Start Weight = 320 lbs 

Total Lost = 43.4 lbs

________________________________.___.___._____________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________THIS WEEKS WEIGH IN!___________________

This Week = -1.8 lbs 

Current Weight= 274 lb

Start Weight = 320 lbs 

Total Lost = 45.2 lbs

Still working back to where I was a few weeks ago, but I've lost the past few weeks. I'm changing my foods currently. Making better choices.

I just had some dental work done the other day, so now I need to eat some softer foods for a bit. It actually ended up working well with the new foods I've chosen to start eating anyways.

I'm trying to work on getting more ...

.fiber

.potassium

and just in general .less processed foods

I recently rearannged everything in my room to make more space for a desk to work on. I had been moving all my things into the living room each time I wanted to do work...and sometimes it just messed up the "workin' groove". Especially when I wanted to work on my art. So now that I don;t have to create a portable office everyday I want to work, I should have more time to get everything I want done. It may not sound like much, but it was a hassel.

While I was moving all my stuff around, I had misplaced my camera charger...I need to upload pictures! :} I'll be making it my mission to find that charger tonight! Along with tuning in for some Walking Dead & Dexter :} 

Hope everyones weekend was great

Goodnight

-Wallflower

Weigh-In & NSV :)

What's with all the late updating Wallflower?!

I don't know!!!!

I went to Weight Watchers this past Saturday, but havn't updated here yet!

Here's where we are at!

This Week = -1.6 lbs

Current Weight= 276 lb

Start Weight = 320 lbs 

Total Lost = 44 lbs

I feel like I'm on a Teeter Totter.. up and down these few pounds. I actually recall having this same problem last year at this exact weight. I couldn't quite get to that 50lb. mark! 
I'm thinking that some changesneed to be made. I've been working out on the same machines...and I think it's just having less of an effect. I do up my resistance on themachines... but it doesn't seem to be enough.
I'm going to have to some thinking about what extra I can do. MY BIKE is fixed, it just needed some air in the tired. I havn't taken a ride in a while.

MY NSV- Non-scale victory!

It's been time for a new pair of pants for a while now.... I caught a look at how my jeans were looking in a store mirror. I was not impressed, my bum was all saggy and it just wasn't flattering anymore.

Those were size 24! I have moved down previously from size 28 (my largest :(...) to my now 22 size jeans.

I've taken into concidertion that every brand has different measurments! So confusing! Just let 22 be a 22 and so on....

This was nice, I'm thinking of buying a few of this pair. Usually after wearing jeans/ pants for a bit..they get loose till the next time you put them in the drier...

Maybe that's just me, but these don;t do that at all. I could wear them all day nd they feel just as fitted as they did when i first put them on in the morning. It's nice to have soemthing that fits well.

Just thought I'd share that NSV!

Good Afternoon!

Wallflower