Weigh-in update! :D Believe-Worthy-Capable & Healthy

What a  great meeting this past week!

Current: 264.8 lbs

This week: -3.4 lbs

Total Loss: 55.2 lbs

Starting: 320 lbs

Since Yom Kippur and my Saturday meeting times didn't mix I went to the meeting on Thursday. I'm not sure I had ever gone at that time..but wow. The ladies and leader on Thursdays at 12 were amazing. The leader Jodie had this way about her that was so positive and fun. She took time to actually make little gift like things to hand out during the meeting. This last weekly had the theme of "believe", kick starting  this lifestyle change with a  good attitude!
She made everyone bracelets that had different words that also carried a theme through the weekly handouts:
Believe   Worthy   Capable   &   Healthy 
I wanted the believe bracelet (because it was pink! & also) because although all of these words are great to describe important changes that have started to come about since the beginning of this journey.. BELIEVE was the one that started everything.
Believe
At one point I used to believe I was stuck. Even purchasing  a size 4x size T-shirt (when I was still 3x) in belief i'd be needing it soon. I hadn't thought twice about why I bought it till I started my journey and realized I was feeling that hopeless.
I started believing in myself when I started to see changes in my progress and saw success with myself. Going to meetings and having support with people who are striving for the same goals has helped me believe in myself.

Hope everyone is having a great week

Wallflovver

Rosh Hashanah & Weigh-in Update!

Photo from KitchenMonki.com

Here's to a 

happy & a healthy sweet new year!

Over the holiday's my  this past week I gained 0.4

Last week's weigh in I lost 2 lbs.

So currently I'm at the total loss # of 51 lbs!

Challah and Honey = my weakness. It's just so good. :P This past week was kind of a "everything is up in the air". No meals were planned and I did lose track of actually tracking my food! Oh boy! 

This next week will be some more holidays..but that will be at the end of the week. I'll be going to the thursday WW meetings instead of my Saturday meetings.

I'm getting to a point where I am not sure if I can continue to afford my monthly fees and WW, the gym ( I was lucky and had my dad helping with the gym before, but I'll start paying for that now). I may be making a choice soon. I'm thinking about working out at home. Taking the dogs for long walks..swimming from home.. anything! This may start in September. I also have some workout DVDs. I always forget I could watch some on youtube as well.

Ha! Oh how I wish.... ( love this show & this man!)

For some reason this past week has felt so strange. It's a feeling as if my motivation is low and I have things to do but no energy to do them. Applying to all these jobs for SO LONG and no real positive responses has gotten to me. I think there is only so much a girl can take. BUT! I'm realizing now that this past week has been miserable because I feel like I'm giving up! So getting back on track will probably just help everything come together, food planning, and job searching.

OH! and Tonight!!!! is Rachael v.s Guy Kids cook off :) I've been seeing the ads for it and am so excited!? haha  SO I'll be watching this tonight with my mom.

It's the small things I guess.

Hoping to get everything going again

also trying not to be discouraged 

-Wallflovver

Family health!

Yeah, here i am instagraming my breakfast!

This week was definitely an eye opener. 

1st: last weight watchers meetings my friend told me she had literally just heard her father had a heart attack. He doesn't reside here so she couldn't do anything in that immediate  time. Of course we talked for a while and she says she wants to help her dad be more health conscious. Her attitude in this situation was very positive in a very negative situation. 

( she flew over to her dad the next day and he had a successful safe surgery. He now has a stint in his heart and is recovering. )

This made me think a lot about why we are doing this....

A few days later my mom comes home from a dr. Appointment and tells us she is diabetic now. 

Turns out the past few times shes gone to the dr. They had warned her.I HAD NO IDEA. I know what's done is done and now there is only one thing to do.Continue and help her out. 

BUT! I'm a little upset at myself because I ask how the dr appointments go. I ask her about her aches and pains. All I want is to help and see what we've got to do to fix it. But the responses are usually short and not to detailed. Just a little hurt that she felt she needed to keep it all to herself. 

Her attitude towards the news is keeping me optimistic. Hopefully this can bring a new way of eating in our entire house. Now that it's not just me trying to be health conscious.  Well see. My family is very supportive but my dad insists he needs cookies ( Oreos) in the house.  Oy! 

We've been looking up new foods. Her diet will pretty much change drastically.. For the better. It was always hard to get my mom to try new foods, so I'm hoping health in general will be the push she needs. I'm glad to look up recipes and exercises we can do together. Probably pool workouts because her knees are bothering her? Hmm 

My weigh in is tomorrow! 

Hope everyone had a great week :) 

Wallflovver 

Weigh-in update!

I'm still using my phone to post. For now it's just easier.  My Internet keeps logging me in and out! ahh! 

I went to my Ww meeting this morning and the leader wasn't there ( we had a sub).. But my friends from Ww that have been busy & one has been sick for a month! I feel much better having these two back in the meetings with me. 

Another yummy looking breakfast idea! 

269.2 was my weight this week!

She calculated -2 lbs but I calculated back home that its -1.6 rather... 

Ah! It confuses me so much when they mix up the numbers. 

Hope everyone has a great weekend!

It's been raining all week here -

Wallflower 

NSV/ Goal Clothes/ Meds? & Weigh-in

An urn flower I found outback

I had to stop an admire the sky for a few.. other than those 5 minutes, the rest of the weekend it rained. Glad I could capture this rarity.

This week=271.2

Last week= 270.8

Start Weight= 320

Total loss=48.8

Alright.. here it goes...
Remember I said my doctor may have warned me about gaining a bit on the pill I started ( waited till monday to start) after my last Dr. Visit? If not- she did. I also figured I better not actually think "I'm going to gain b/c of my pill" or else that may just give me an "oh, well" attitude..
Knowing this I eat as clean as I was when I was losing in past weeks. Stretching, doing little exercises during the day when there were small chunks of time. As Well as going to the gym and swimming for an hour on the say I had gym, but couldn't go because my side was hurting. (BTW The pool was an amazing saviour at that point.)

Alright, well my point is with all the work I put in this week, going in knowing I had new meds... I came out gaining half a pound. Sure it's not permanent... but BOY WAS I SHOCKED. Kinda just stood there wondering...this scale...*squinting* kinda wondering if it was my position on the scale.- yeah right! haha. Maybe I took it hard because I was so close to 50! AH!

I'll keep an eye on it, there are a few alternatives to this medicine so I'll see what happens this next weekend.. or I may ask about some alternatives.

NSV!!
I may have mentioned I found out I'm no longer size 12 shoe! Now I can finally shop for size 10 shoe... I think's been a long while since I've looked in the 10's.  Oh, so many more selections. Hunting for size 11/ 12 was kinda like treasure hunting sometimes.

So when I found out, I was trying on these shoes I seriously just loved, I tried it on in 12. Nope- too big, that happens (no biggie) moving on to 11... no again. I was about to just give up but then I saw the same pair in 10.

Wishfull thinking, I try them on- what a fluke! they fit. I try on almost all the 10's at that point. One after another. It took awhile for me to catch on, seriously! this must be why all most of my shoes back home have been slipping off when I walk. DUH. I think I live on another planet sometimes. Feet shrink, now I know.

Size 10! So proud! Is that silly? Plus these were majorly on sale- win win.

This is not my final goal "outfit" top, but I did order it keeping in mind it may be a little tight. I don't usually buy clothes online but I saw this top and thought "okay, if this doesn't fit when I get it.. I could be a good goal top..". That's pretty much what ended up happening since it was a bit tight around the lower area.. near my hips.

this shirt is a 3x from Forever 21 Plus ( I love love love how all designers run smaller or larger for the "same sizes")
Let's just make it all universal. I don't think  anybody would mind...right?

I love the colllar and the cute buttons. 

So far this post proves something, I seem to be a polkadot fan. Just noticed.

Have a good weekend/ week!

Wallflovver

My Alarm worked but my computer didn't.. Weigh-In Update

Soo I have my blog alarm... that's all fine it reminded me after my WW meeting. I get on my computer, wifi signal "up and working" but the internet says its not connected...this happens often now that this computer is almost 5 years old. One of my friends who has the same exact computer got hers at the same exact day as I did is having computer problems. She actually ended up needed to purchase a new one because the parts for our model computer is "ancient" in computer land apparently. I finally restarted my computer this morning, once again and I'm not getting an error message!

My lunch at work yesterday. A turkey wrap with a piece of swiss and less than a tsp of  thousand island. Also some string cheese and an Orange.

Weigh-In (Saturday)

This week=270.8 (-1.6 lbs this week!)

Last week= 272.4.2 

Start Weight= 320

Total loss= 49.2 <-- almost 50  

This past week was hard, What helped most was tracking my food. I guess that's why they emphasize tracking! I'm still using an app on my phone to track with my friend.

The other day I was at the Dr.s for an annual check-up. I am starting a pill that "may increase weigh" ummm..... perfect? Ugh. I'm trying to not even thing about it, because it "MAY"not effect my weight at all. I almost wish they hadn't even said anything.

I sat/jumped/ (i don't know what I did) on my bed last night and I felt this weird kind of cramping pain in my side where I landed..now my leg upper side of my leg hurts when I walk. :/ I'm thinking it will "work itself out", at least that's what my dad told me.

I was at a friends house and found all these amazing plants..

My planner came in a while ago, but since it was pre-ordered and it  starts in August... I have some time to wait before I start using it.

We went toa neighborhood just outside the beach to watch the fireworks this  year, it was wonderful. My family is almost impossible to get out without an argument...so it was a miracle to get them out to see fireworks. Success!

Hope everyone has a good week-

Wallflower

Keeping Motivation UP and Weight DOWN!

This week=272.4 (-3 lbs this week!)

Last week= 276.2 

Start Weight= 320

Total loss= 47.6

Enjoying a CLIF bar while also enjoying my favorite tree, it's finally in bloom.  It's funny how the bloom is always on time for summer. Nature is amazing.

Some of my breakfasts from this past week. I've been trying to change it up! I was having the same thing every morning for a while.

Heres to a great week!

Cheers!

It's funny when you eat better for while you actually just feel more energized(No kidding! Right?). It's a start to a great cycle. The intended cycle is to stay motivated from this positive week and continue!

I tracked all my food on an app called lose it. I'm keeping track of my points on the small tracker papers they give you at the meetings. I'm doing both because a friend of mine is also working hard and getting healthy. She asked me to follow along on the app with her. I've mentioned before how I think it's extremely helpful not to do this alone. It's great motivation when you have support of others reaching for the same goals (that goes for almost everything).

I've been spending some sare time working on getting my supplies organized. Next up is my paint box... it's always been a challenge. (Pens down/ paints to go)

My planner is on it's way :) last time I checked it was in Boca Raton and last night Orlando. I'm kinda stalking my journal on it's journey here! It's WONDERFUL! Thank you for the ability to track mail!

Couldn't sleep a wink till about 6 in the morning the other day... this was happening out my window. Do I seriously sleep through this lovely sky every morning?

 OH!!!! OH BOY! last but not least-- Is anybody else overly excited about the new season of Dexter coming back on Tomorrow night!?

Hope everyone has a great weekend!

Wallflovver

Facing my fears (the scale)

Tonights Dinner! Sushi with Brown Rice

Last week I never weighed in knowing full well it wouldn't be great news. That wasn't the best way to go about trying to fix the problem. I'n the process of not knowing how much I had gained  since last weekend I've been in the dark for two weeks till this weekend! Horray! :(

This mornings breakfast 1 slice of salami and 2 regular eggs

This week I walked into the WW meeting looking to start with a fresh outlook on my weigh-ins. The women weighing me in is a fellow member and sits in on the meetings. Just recently she started helping with the weigh-ins. Anyways, sometimes when you weigh-in, the person that fills in the cards really makes a difference. Sometimes it's just "you are a little up this week".. instead she offered her feelings on how it's just a bump in the road and so on... that made it a little less horrible but I still am facing  this past weeks numbers.

Last week= 271.2 
This week= 276.2 (+5)
Start Weight= 320
Total loss= 48.8

Turns out when I was feeling "under the weather" last post I had no clue it would get worse. I thought it was one of those couple days kinda sore throats.. I ended up making a trip to the Dr. on friday to get some medicine for my "head cold". Nope!  I have a viral infection.. it's almost gone at this point but I lost my voice for a better part of the day yesterday. 

Does anybody else have an obsession with trying to organize everything?! I think I do. 
I finally decided it would be a good idea to get a day planner. 
Let me just say .. I'm veryy excited to have ordered one. I'll be getting it sometime next month, so today has been all about pre-organizing before my planner gets here.

I was choosing between these two :) I chose the one on the right. I searched for a while and finally found one  that was exactly what I wanted. I read lots of great reviews.

Time management has always been such a  challenge for me, I honestly wonder how people "just do it". I need reminders, charts and lists. ( how horrible is it that all of the above just excites me??)

Getting better (in more way than one..)

Hope everyone had a great weekend!

Wallflovver

Undertheweather & weigh-in ?

What weight-in?! 

Last meeting I did the following:

1. Signed in
2. 
   
3. listen to the meeting leader
4.  talked to some friends
5.  and then left.

 Was there something I had forgot? Yes. Did I kinda sorta mean to "forget"? Yes. I meaningfully didn't weigh-in because I was scared.

I'm thinking this isn't a great habit to fall into (for myself). For instance I have a friend who doesn't like weighing-in every week... she does better not knowing for about a month or so. This is proving to be a method that doesn't really work for me. I am scared to face the fact that I may have just gained more after I thought I would start making better choices.

The Stress factor
As a freelance artist I had recently had a long issue of a "client" not paying me for work I had delivered on. I proceeded to call their place of work (leave a message), their cell phone (leave a message), E-mail them and finally text them, I did this everyday for an embarrassingly long time. They did occasionally answer (never in a returned phone call, but rather text) but it was always a vague answer and never really an answer.

Yesterday was the day after about 8 months(?) that they finally decided it was time for them to pay me. This freelance job I'm referencing was one f my first freelance Illustration jobs and I had made a pretty massive mistake right out the gate! I hadn't made an official contract, what I had was an E-mail that my client agreed to but it seems kind of informal.

Lesson Learned.

by :PEARLEDEN@deviantart.com (not mine but oh so true)
Silver Lining
On the exact day that I had finally ended my struggle on getting paid.. I was contacted for a new freelance illustration job. It also just so happens to be another logo! Here's to a fresh start with a new client.

In my last meeting someone mentioned "When you are busy, it's less likely for you to eat all day.." or something along those lines. I am home usually, job hunting and when I do take a "break" my kitchen is always right around the corner. Since I can't move the distance between my kitchen and my room I plan on filling up my schedule and being more productive.
Instead of setting alarms for only waking up maybe I'll set alarms for things that need to get done.
Weeks are flying by like nothing at the moment.
Blog entry alarm could really help me out too. haha

I'll be weighing in this week on Saturday. Even if I'm scared but hopefully won't have to be.

Good Afternoon!

Wallflovver

Testing testing ( small update) (-:

1st things 1st
There are a few first things. I am carefully typing this post through my phone! This is very exciting! Hello everybody! I'm new to the 2000's! Seriously excited... There is a blogger app and weight watchers app. The weight watchers app will be of more use when I become a monthly member. (I've been paying by week)! So all those things are probably more exciting than they should be!

My next 1st thing (haha) is I finally had my gallbladder removed! The surgery was 11am yesterday the 29th. Everything went well :) and I suppose I'll be recovering for a little. I forgot to weigh- in on Thursday ( since Ww meetings in my area ,at least don't happen on Friday mornings).

I've been sleeping a lot and pre- made myself lots of yummy matzo ball soup beforehand! Btw happy Passover and almost Easter.

Some of my frustrations that keep me from updating are
1. My slow horrible terrible Internet connection in my room

That's about it... Some good news now is this app. The wifi on my phone is way better :/ weird hu? Same wifi different devices. I had my computer " fixed" once and now it's just not the same. That was a while ago! Anywho, I'll be stopping now haha.
So, recovering, sleeping, blogger and Netflix app (another omg wtf thank you) liquids and the unfortunate getting up and sitting down to pee! Tmi? Sorry :p I'm not seeing anyway to add pictures at this very moment!
Back to sleep! These meds are heavy duty! I'm hoping when I look back at what I wrote I wasn't just pressing numbers and symbols!

Last thing!!! I love this!! Found how to add pics! Here are some from the past week ! You know, Passover, dogs, and more Passover :)

Good morning
Wallflower <3

Weigh-In Update Sat Feb,23rd

This Week = +1.8 lbs 

Current Weight= 266.6 lb

Start Weight = 320 lbs 

Total Lost = 53.4 lbs

This week was a gain :( I think I went sugar/ sweets crazy! But that's out of my system now. I'm looking forward to a great upcoming week! :)

Atm, I'm looking up some recipes I could make for my dad's birthday night. His 63rd birthday is on Wed the 27th. :) I'll be making a nice dinner home and later on in the week we'll all go out as a family.

I'm also doing this while I'm waiting to watch the new episode of Girls on HBO.

lovvvee this show,  Lena Dunham (the creator) is a huge inspiration.

Anyways! I'm looking forward to having a positive week :)

Goodnight!!

-Wallflower

New Weigh-In Update!

Last Saturday! the 16th

This Week = -2.6 lbs 

Current Weight= 264.8 lb

Start Weight = 320 lbs 

Total Lost = 55.2 lbs

About to head out to the gym! I havn't gone for a while, on friday I felt as though my dad had given me his cold. That afternoon I started feeling my usual self again... uhh???  I'm glad I didn't get a cold, but what the heck!?

This monday one of our family friends had a family member pass, so the funeral was monday. The destination was very far away..so the day was spent traveling to and from. 

I'll be going back now! :)

yay a loss this  (past ) week

Good afternoon

-Wallflower

Weigh-in Update & Crafts!

This Week = -.6 lbs 

Current Weight= 268.8 lbs

Start Weight = 320 lbs

Total Lost = -51.2 lbs

How is it that I'm always forgetting how much I love watermelon?! A few people recommended I  eat more watermelon and strawberries since I was having a problem getting enough fiber. I was happy to find out they will be in season sometimes very soon in March - July. :) Awesome!!!
*edit I was recommended to eat watermelon for how much water is in it..not so much the fiber it turns out.

So refreshing!  (Credit: Harsha K R/Flickr)

As for strawberries... they are okay. They are always kinda tart?
This week felt a bit uneventful.. and I just received a piece for my camera that was broken! So now I'll be able to take my own pictures again.

YAY Crafts 

I've been feeling like I need to do some crafting! You know that urge? " I need to make something with my hands..." kinda feeling.

I forgot to take a picture of the sides before I started... It was just a plain white ceramic  bowl that I've had since I was little... I never especially likes it and was about to throw it away...

But then I decided I should just bedazzle it.... So I cut out pictures from a few magazines and an Illustration from Alice In Wonderland I printed out. I have random print outs just for this reason.
THEN of course there needed to be beads glued to the top!
Sometimes I think I'm addicted to hot glueing...

I didn't really have a place to store my brushes ..so this was the perfect height for them!
(Front)

Turns out a friend of mine was giving away tons of brushes she never used. Before that I never needed a "place" for brushes. (Back)

My second project - Tissue paper flowers! There were made from coffee filters and colored with watercolors

the coffee filter flowers live here now :}

So a while back I had this same feeling and worked on ^those^ projects ... and I have one more I haven't done yet. I was waiting for some the next time I feel like making something! (now)
I bought tissue paper to make a pom pom for my room.

Seems easy enough! I'll be trying this tonight or this afternoon. :)

Have a great week!

Wallflower

So close! So excited!!

This Week = -5.2 lbs 

Current Weight= 271.6 lb

Start Weight = 320 lbs 

Total Lost = 48.4lbs

1.6 lb. to go till I hit my lowest and my 50!

Weight Watchers-key rings... 

So, I had no idea people get a key ring for your %10 goal at WW....
I also had no idea there was a key charm for 25 lbs lost! The kay rings came up in the meeting today and I'd realized I hadn't gotten any of those things. Apparently there is another charm for 50 lbs lost, HOPEFULLY I'll be able to add another charm to this key ring next weekend!

..am I the only one who had no idea these existed?

Some pictures from this past week!

My parents went out to lunch one afternoon and decided to bring me back a salad and a  Gyro. The salad is under the Gyro in the picture, it filled up the other side of the takeout box.  This was my first Gyro, and it was really very good!

A recipe I wanted to try from the new 360 booklet! We went to the market, I wrote down what I needed...and never remembered to get the flour :P

YAY! WW Keyring (the keyring = %10 and the Charm= 25 lb. 

Activia has always kinda been my savior!

The Light FF has actually been pretty good :}

This week I tried these Skinny Cow Ice-cream sandwiches, they are  great and low in points.

I keep forgetting... water is my FRIEND! Even though I have to pee more often....
TMI?

ALL IN ALL, this past week was great, I feel like I'm finally totally back on track. I wasn't feeling %100 in the game. 

Hope everyone had a good week!

Good night!

-Wallflower

Weigh In Update(s)

AHH!
Aside from not blogging D:
I've been very productive the past few weeks.
I'm working on my portfolio for a specific job... I'll be applied by the end of this month!

{Nov,24th } LAST WEEK= -1.4 lbs 

Current Weight= 276.6 lb

Start Weight = 320 lbs 

Total Lost = 43.4 lbs

________________________________.___.___._____________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________THIS WEEKS WEIGH IN!___________________

This Week = -1.8 lbs 

Current Weight= 274 lb

Start Weight = 320 lbs 

Total Lost = 45.2 lbs

Still working back to where I was a few weeks ago, but I've lost the past few weeks. I'm changing my foods currently. Making better choices.

I just had some dental work done the other day, so now I need to eat some softer foods for a bit. It actually ended up working well with the new foods I've chosen to start eating anyways.

I'm trying to work on getting more ...

.fiber

.potassium

and just in general .less processed foods

I recently rearannged everything in my room to make more space for a desk to work on. I had been moving all my things into the living room each time I wanted to do work...and sometimes it just messed up the "workin' groove". Especially when I wanted to work on my art. So now that I don;t have to create a portable office everyday I want to work, I should have more time to get everything I want done. It may not sound like much, but it was a hassel.

While I was moving all my stuff around, I had misplaced my camera charger...I need to upload pictures! :} I'll be making it my mission to find that charger tonight! Along with tuning in for some Walking Dead & Dexter :} 

Hope everyones weekend was great

Goodnight

-Wallflower

Weigh-In!

1st+Here's where we are at!

This Week = -1.6 lbs 

Current Weight= 276 lb

Start Weight = 320 lbs 

Total Lost = 45.6 lbs

It was lovely out this evening!!!

So! Turns out the bike I was talking about in my last post has old dry tires....my dad told me it's in need of some tlc! I found this out after riding around a little.
 BUT THEN ! I found my brothers bikes. He has two because he get into his "kicks" it was biking for a while...so I took the more "friendly" looking bike for a ride.
UHHHHH...I have no idea how my brother sits on that seat. I'm prettyy sure that even if I weighed my ideal weight that seat would still have given me problems. I couldn't stand to go further than just around the neighborhood. The next morning I felt it, no details needed....but it was all very sore in all those kinds of areas.-haha

side note: I love the name of my seat on my old bike "CHEEKS". I'd rather ride around on those "Cheeks" anyday.

 Other than the fact that I will not be using my brother's bike anytime soon..and my need to wait a bit to get my own tires fixed, it was nice being back on a bike. We have bicycles at the gym...but it's just different. Till then, I'm still looking for soemthing that will get my weight changing again.

This routine is too much of a routine!

Last Nights YUMMY DINNER!

The other night we had shish kabobs! They were pretty darn good too.

Phew-Anyways- I'm feeling so much better being caught back up on my postings!

Goodnight Everyone

TGIF (almost)

Wallflower