NSV/ Goal Clothes/ Meds? & Weigh-in

An urn flower I found outback

I had to stop an admire the sky for a few.. other than those 5 minutes, the rest of the weekend it rained. Glad I could capture this rarity.

This week=271.2

Last week= 270.8

Start Weight= 320

Total loss=48.8

Alright.. here it goes...
Remember I said my doctor may have warned me about gaining a bit on the pill I started ( waited till monday to start) after my last Dr. Visit? If not- she did. I also figured I better not actually think "I'm going to gain b/c of my pill" or else that may just give me an "oh, well" attitude..
Knowing this I eat as clean as I was when I was losing in past weeks. Stretching, doing little exercises during the day when there were small chunks of time. As Well as going to the gym and swimming for an hour on the say I had gym, but couldn't go because my side was hurting. (BTW The pool was an amazing saviour at that point.)

Alright, well my point is with all the work I put in this week, going in knowing I had new meds... I came out gaining half a pound. Sure it's not permanent... but BOY WAS I SHOCKED. Kinda just stood there wondering...this scale...*squinting* kinda wondering if it was my position on the scale.- yeah right! haha. Maybe I took it hard because I was so close to 50! AH!

I'll keep an eye on it, there are a few alternatives to this medicine so I'll see what happens this next weekend.. or I may ask about some alternatives.

NSV!!
I may have mentioned I found out I'm no longer size 12 shoe! Now I can finally shop for size 10 shoe... I think's been a long while since I've looked in the 10's.  Oh, so many more selections. Hunting for size 11/ 12 was kinda like treasure hunting sometimes.

So when I found out, I was trying on these shoes I seriously just loved, I tried it on in 12. Nope- too big, that happens (no biggie) moving on to 11... no again. I was about to just give up but then I saw the same pair in 10.

Wishfull thinking, I try them on- what a fluke! they fit. I try on almost all the 10's at that point. One after another. It took awhile for me to catch on, seriously! this must be why all most of my shoes back home have been slipping off when I walk. DUH. I think I live on another planet sometimes. Feet shrink, now I know.

Size 10! So proud! Is that silly? Plus these were majorly on sale- win win.

This is not my final goal "outfit" top, but I did order it keeping in mind it may be a little tight. I don't usually buy clothes online but I saw this top and thought "okay, if this doesn't fit when I get it.. I could be a good goal top..". That's pretty much what ended up happening since it was a bit tight around the lower area.. near my hips.

this shirt is a 3x from Forever 21 Plus ( I love love love how all designers run smaller or larger for the "same sizes")
Let's just make it all universal. I don't think  anybody would mind...right?

I love the colllar and the cute buttons. 

So far this post proves something, I seem to be a polkadot fan. Just noticed.

Have a good weekend/ week!

Wallflovver

ECXITED!!! (What did I miss!?)

Update: 
I'm still on the WW program, I actually signed up for the Monthly Pass (it's cheaper than paying every week).
The last time I weighed in (here) I was 266.4

Currently I'm= 270.4
Start Weight= 320
Total loss= 49 

I was off track and gained 5lbs while on 'vacation' for a few weeks!
Not okay! especially since it was so hard getting out of 270's in the 1st place.

Since my last entry, I have not been on Blogger at all! Let me just say, sincerely.. it feels so homey seeing everyones posts again and seeing the different blogs/ styles of writings and so on... (it's like walking back into your home after being away for a long time and seeing where you left all your things..)

So to continue with this (blog/ everyones blog) as another great weightloss tool..

It's also kind of funny because tonight a show I found very inspiring is coming back to air! TONIGHT! kinda excited? YES!

ABC's Extreme Makeover 

Weigh-loss Edition with Chris Powell!

It may be a bit of a turn off to some people( it being a tv show and so on) but I love the show and have found it useful in my own weigh-loss journey. This show was almost like my weekly reminder of what I was doing and that it's all very possible. Not easy but possible :)

more info on the show: http://beta.abc.go.com/shows/extreme-weight-loss

It's nice being home sweet home (blog wise) haha

Good Night!

Wallflovver

New Weigh-In Update!

Last Saturday! the 16th

This Week = -2.6 lbs 

Current Weight= 264.8 lb

Start Weight = 320 lbs 

Total Lost = 55.2 lbs

About to head out to the gym! I havn't gone for a while, on friday I felt as though my dad had given me his cold. That afternoon I started feeling my usual self again... uhh???  I'm glad I didn't get a cold, but what the heck!?

This monday one of our family friends had a family member pass, so the funeral was monday. The destination was very far away..so the day was spent traveling to and from. 

I'll be going back now! :)

yay a loss this  (past ) week

Good afternoon

-Wallflower

YAY! -50 lbs :) Weigh-In Update!!

This Week = -2.2 lbs 
Current Weight= 269.4 lbs
Start Weight = 320 lbs
Total Lost = -50.6 lbs

:)

YAY!!! OH MY GOODNESS!!! Hello -50!

It's taken a while to get to this 50 lb. mark but it's finally here. This past week had an interesting twist at the end. It could be a result of weight loss and foods I've eaten in the past. But I'm not going to let this take away from how happy I am about getting to -50 lbs!

Now I'll be dealing with gallstones :{

I was in severe pain the other night, I woke up my parents to take me to the ER.
Turns out I've had gallstones for a while, it just started to come to light the other night! I was taken care of for the night, then went home to get some rest. Before I left the nurse was talking about how I'll be on a Bland Diet till I get the surgery. ( I've looked it up and saw that after the gallbladder is gone, diet will change then also)

The Bland Diet is calling for some very sudden changes in diet...I'll be on the bland diet for at least two weeks. Honestly, I'm  afraid to eat something wrong... it was so panful the other night! So far tonight I've had chicken broth with noodles and carrots. Thankfully I've had time to do more research before grocery shopping this afternoon.

I've found many of the lists of Bland diets & Galbladder diets contradict each other.. or at least there are a lot of items on these diets that get canceled out .
I just got back from the Grocery and found
I was specifically told to drink water (a lot), no eggs, no fatty greasy foods (urmkay!) Less than 3% fat generally, no tomatos, brocoli...raw veggies.

Chicken & Veggie Broths
Pudding (jello brand) & tapioca pudding ( the few puddings w/o egg)
Lean Turkey
Chicken
Mixed Veggies (for soup and rice..)
Rice
Nilla Wafers (ff)
Apple sauce
Bananas
And Fish..
Of course there are other things...but this will be about it for me from what I was told.
Cheerios and I are going to become besties!

All in all I'm trying not to use the pain meds that were given to cover the pain that I may have up till surgery time! ( in about two weeks or so)

Thankfully none of the gallbladder isues are going to interfere with time at the gym! I got in my usual time in at the gym nd then back at home I was in the mood to keep moving. 

Pictures from this past week!

Breakfast from this past week. Special K's Chocolatey Strawberry Cereal   with some Almond Breeze and a banana. :}

Breakfast from this past week. Two eggs and spinach with reduced fat mozzarella on top.

Giving Vanilla Pudding a shot, now that chocolate (and chocolate flavored anythings) are out for a bit :/
Also trying the reduced fat Nilla Wafers...pretty yummy!

I have no idea who's these are.. I asked everyone in our house! Nobody claimed em' :} So I've been using these for a few months.

Keeping my WW key ring someplace I see it every morning :) Infront of my mirror. It's a great reminder of where I am and where I'd like to be.

Hope everyone had a good week!

Good night!

-Wallflower

Happy New Year!!! Update

The things people say suck sometimes, I remembered soemthing someone told me in elementary school...and I guess it kept me from wearing shorts till... now?
I just remember "nameless kid" saying something along the lines of "wow, you are that fat.." and of course he was looking at my knees/legs while saying this. Up till then I had never thought twice about my knees, but I guess they were fat enough to catch his attention?! Soooo that's all it really took for me to be mortified and totally embarrassed about my leggies for what feels like forever!
I'm still not comfortable walking abound outside in these shorts, i actually bought them becauseI don't own a swim suit anymore and have been doing water aerobics with some girls from WW.

The point of taking a picture of my legs was to maybe try and further getting over this "fear", and what better way then to take a picture of them and post them on the internet!

I'd like to thank Target for only having super "short" shorts. I needed shorts recently and found myself thinking about how comfortable (uncomfortable) I am/ have been in my own skin.

So now in 2013, shorts will be part of my wardrobe (shorts that aren't from the mens sports department...at least). Living in Florida.. this is a good thing!

Water Aerobics!
I've done water aerobics in the past, I remember being t my grandmas pool and doing some with her and her friends. This most recent time I went with some girls in my WW class. It was not as low intensity as I remember with my grandma and her buddies. I'm glad this wasn't like how I remembered. It was actually purdy fun! I think I was sweating in the pool? weird feeling.

I wrote this post up several days ago and I have no idea what is taking me so long to post it!

Breakfast!!

Look who decided to take  rest infront of the house this afternoon :)

   Good news!

Now that my camera charger isn't lost :) :) :) :) :) :) !!!!! I can finally upload the pictures I had on there from before! I was all set to buy a new charger on Ebay and the last thing I do before heading over to the computer was find my camera charger. I KNEW IT! I thought I'd find it after I ordered it though.

Happy 2013 everyone!!

Wallflower

Weigh In Update(s)

AHH!
Aside from not blogging D:
I've been very productive the past few weeks.
I'm working on my portfolio for a specific job... I'll be applied by the end of this month!

{Nov,24th } LAST WEEK= -1.4 lbs 

Current Weight= 276.6 lb

Start Weight = 320 lbs 

Total Lost = 43.4 lbs

________________________________.___.___._____________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________THIS WEEKS WEIGH IN!___________________

This Week = -1.8 lbs 

Current Weight= 274 lb

Start Weight = 320 lbs 

Total Lost = 45.2 lbs

Still working back to where I was a few weeks ago, but I've lost the past few weeks. I'm changing my foods currently. Making better choices.

I just had some dental work done the other day, so now I need to eat some softer foods for a bit. It actually ended up working well with the new foods I've chosen to start eating anyways.

I'm trying to work on getting more ...

.fiber

.potassium

and just in general .less processed foods

I recently rearannged everything in my room to make more space for a desk to work on. I had been moving all my things into the living room each time I wanted to do work...and sometimes it just messed up the "workin' groove". Especially when I wanted to work on my art. So now that I don;t have to create a portable office everyday I want to work, I should have more time to get everything I want done. It may not sound like much, but it was a hassel.

While I was moving all my stuff around, I had misplaced my camera charger...I need to upload pictures! :} I'll be making it my mission to find that charger tonight! Along with tuning in for some Walking Dead & Dexter :} 

Hope everyones weekend was great

Goodnight

-Wallflower

Unofficial Weigh-In & Small Vacation!

Alrighty!

Weigh-In wise, I was unable to go to WW meeting this past week. I usually keep track of my weight at home and at the meetings. So, that was helpful this week when I couldnlt use the scale at WW. I was down 1 pound from my last week!
So, it's a loss- but getting back will be nice :)
I had actually planned on going a day erlier than I usually do...but then thaattt day I had to leave earlier than expected initially!

Just got done watching Dexter! O: Uhh, i just want to know everything...right now!

Weekend!!!

This past week was very exciting! I went to the Spooky Empire Horror Convention this weekend! I saw so many great people! Ahh what's whith all the explimation points!? I don't know, but I'm still pretty excited...
My favorite part was sitting in on a Q&A with R.L Stine, he was there promoting his new adult novel.  Knowing he was going to doa  signing, i brought along my copy of The Haunted Mask! What a nice guy, sincerely, it was wonderful meeting such a nostalgic figure...

I'll be updating with some real pictures :}

and real words making real sentences.... at this point my brain checked-out for the night!

I'm exhausted from this awesome trip!

UPDATED :)....

I chose The Haunted Mask :} Since it was Halloween & my favorite GB.

I choose from the Goosebumps I had in my room, the rest are in storage :{. I kept some of my favorites in storage.
Like the choose your own endings.


Hope everyone else has been doing well! 

for now-

Good night!!!

Wallflower

Fresh Florida Oranges & blueberry wine! 36th WW Weigh-In

Staying the same-ish.... 

It's crazy when your state is known for something, like oranges, then  you find some of the produce in the market isn't local... hahah what?

I miss having orange trees around

Before hurricanes ruined our trees, we had several fruit trees on our yards. I remember spending an evening with my family making fresh orange juice for the house! :]

Anyways, I found some local oranges this week! I also was on the search for a blue wine bottle for a project I had last week.  It took a while but I found a blue bottle, it just so happened the wine was also from Florida :}.  Took a while to actually have  taste since I've been busy with projects. I decided to finally give it a try last night, just a sip, since I was still working on projects. The blueberry wine was actually very good!

here's their site!
 http://www.keelandcurleywinery.com/wines/blueberry-sweet.php

also a link to a site showing a group visiting the winery :]
http://www.barefootinfloridawithjulie.com/field_trip_16.html

Good afternoon!

Wallflower

4th Weight Watchers Weigh in!

This is exciting & scary because I did very well this week! At least for me thinking about how last week was 2 pound loss that it would be a little less or around that same number.Well, shows what I know!

• This week I lost 7.6 lb's :]
•  Down to 299 lbs! 
• My Total Loss: 20.6 lbs!

Haha it was funny I came into the meeting before anybody & the leader was in the front, so I was just going to get weighed in the front. No problem, I got weighed in the front...(at this point I hadn't seen the scale numbers *not expecting anything special*). The meeting leader says "Wow, let's go to the back and check if that's right". Still not knowing what it was in the first place go to the back & weigh in again. I was thankful since I would sincerely like to know how I'm doing. I'm still standing there looking at 299.8 (OH! That means UNDER 300...uhh yes please, that was my summer goal before I get back to school.  College is starting back up in about 6 weeks! ) & not reacting at all. haha I don't think I realized till she said "Wow, you don't seem surprised or excited!"
- haha anyways, I was of course but it just took me longer than usual to realize what just went on :P

This is how I felt inside!

1st of all I'm scared because I don't know what I did differently this week. * Other than running out of Arizona tea & having to just drink water. BUT!!!- even when I did have Arizona I made an effort to fill half or more of my cup with water. I'm going to look at that more, since that's all I have to go on for now.  I'll look back at my tracker and see what I did differently without realizing maybe!?


Now I just need to keep myself from expecting anything for next week.I'd like to keep from setting myself up for disappointment.

On with the journey

+ The gym was great today. Since it was a pretty stormy afternoon there were more people than usual. I see this cycling class going on *looks kinda intense* & I'd like to try that one of these days before I get back to school.

Tonights Dinner for 4 Points *Plus

Since I'm really not a marinara person most of the time I kept mine plain :] I've been looking online for this brand of  pasta... & I realize now  Mimi's Ravioli actually started these products "Good Health". This Shop is our go to place for getting really great fresh Italian food.

MIMI'S RAVIOLI WEBSITE - if you are a local in South Florida
http://www.mimisravioli.com/goodhealth/gh.htm

I am on the Points Plus program with Weight Watchers & I calculated how much these manicotti logs would be :] 2pts for each log! that's great since it was super filling & delicious.

Nutrition Facts on the back (I write how many points things are on the boxes when possible)

I should make a list some day soon! it will help when I get back to college :]

Plain jane,no marinara sauce and lettuce on the side! this really was great though & I love plain lettuce leaves on the side of most dinners. :]

close up on the insides! & it's whole wheat :] what a deal

• Side Notes!
• Tomorrow is my next weigh in
• I went to the gym & worked out for more than two hours today
• I'll be going tomorrow also , I'm looking forward to working out these days!
• & I'm nurvouse about my weight in.I don;t know why because I haven't done anything wrong @ least not that I know of. It's scary because I can't tell I lost .6 or a pound & so on.

Find out soon enough!

- Goodnight!

Wallflower

Happy 4th of July!

Normally I'd be going to a friends house for the 4th :) this year turned out a little differently & that is okay :)

We didn't grill,like we had planned either! Over the weekend I had looked up a recipe for turkey balls.We had to call in advance to get the ground turkey from the butcher. The recipe I used was from Food Network :


http://www.foodnetwork.com/recipes/giada-de-laurentiis/mini-turkey-meatballs-recipe/index.html
Here is a link to the recipe

mmm!

We need to buy more pam ,instead we used broth to keep them from getting too dry SO that's what's at the bottom of the pan. Baked instead of fried in a pan.

Green & Yellow Peppers, Zucchini & Onions 

I had to modify the recipe since we do keep kosher at my parents.This turned out so great! My dad was very skeptical when we told him we would be having TURKEY BALLS instead of meatballs.He ended up eating fish sticks. Although I did offer him a bit & after he tried the turkey balls he told me he would be a team player next time & eat them with us.HAHA he would only say that if he liked them :)

Something else we were planing did not turn out quite right.. I wanted to make a dessert that would be fresh & something everyone could have. We couldn't find all the ingredients! Maybe another time :P But I still think it's a cute idea *angel  food cake *whipped cream (light) * blueberries * yes please.


Light whipped cream recipe!
http://www.eatingwell.com/recipes/light_whipped_cream.html

I went for a walk today! The gym closed early today :P I didn't get up in enough time.
I did go yesterday though :) & plan to go tomorrow.

Goodnight!

-Wallflower

3rd week weigh in!

This week at my weigh in I went down 2.6 pounds  totaling 12.6. *& yes I'm counting the .6 haha! I don't know exactly how long it's been since I was out of the 300's  but the idea of being out of them :) THAT would be awesome!

Disney is the ultra happy place & any amount lost feels pretty great!  

Now that I've lost 2 this week I feel like this will be the average from now on & that is just fine :} but I'll admit it was cool to have those numbers the 1st few weeks.

It's been getting a little harder. I hate what I look like now & my mom brought up how I haven't seen any of my friends from home since I've been back. I've been home for 8 weeks. This has been a thing with me for a long time , I'll admit I don't feel like I'm worth hanging out with. To sum it all up my self-esteem is close to none existant.


Today seemed more like a bump in the road.

1.) woke up around 8. :)
2.) made myself some egg whites & whole wheat toast *with mushroom & onion! :)
3.) fed my fish :)
4.) ended up in bed in my gym clothes.

all slumberland & no workout makes wallflower a sad girl

I SLEPT from 10-ish to frink'n.... 4 in the afternoon! wow THAT can't happen again.
& this is after a good night's sleep about 8 hours. 15 hours of sleep no gym,no nothing.

I know I don't have to go to the gym everyday & I don't. I think I'm more dissipated in myself because I ended up sleeping instead & I was planning on going. Self sabotage - not worth it & that is what it felt like- to me at least.

Goodnight!

-Wallflower

Ravioli String beans & lettuce salad!mmm I wish the only thing I wish I had fresh string beans instead of canned :P.

I went to the gym for a few hours today & worked on my cardio & arms. 

TV Time! I love  TLC & STYLE

Recently there has been a significant focus on plus size.I came home & my mom says "Hey! want to watch Extreme Makeover with me!?" I say  sure since I love watching shows like that where you make over someones house for them! I was surprised & later found out she meant Extreme Makeover Weight Loss Edition. I had no idea that was even a show. It's absolutely not reality where everyone can take off that much time to dedicate towards such hard work outs.The people in the show are being compensated for the time they are on the show, allowing them to put forth so much effort & an amazing outcome!

There are always going to be people who don't agree but I really think this show is a great inspiration , for anybody * trying to lose any amount of weight. 

There are so many other shows putting up these kinds of shows. I'm seeing these shows coming out for a reason though, people are watching these shows. For different reasons? sure. curiosity,inspiration... 

I'm watching TLC Say Yes to the Dress BIG BLISS.

Oh! & Randy is adorable! :}

If you aren't familiar with Project Life size on Youtube* I was watching one of Gretchen's videos where she was talking about she would like to see Big Bliss be one show with the regular Say Yes to the Dress. I know what she means, however I can see there is this new culture of Plus size & I can  see why they would label these shows.

Project Lifesize is a great channel!

http://www.youtube.com/user/ProjectLifesize

I would absolutely say this channel was  a big contributor to me starting to accept myself & go on my way to really wanting to help myself get healthy FOR ME.

Goodnight!

-Walflower