Weigh-in update! :D Believe-Worthy-Capable & Healthy

What a  great meeting this past week!

Current: 264.8 lbs

This week: -3.4 lbs

Total Loss: 55.2 lbs

Starting: 320 lbs

Since Yom Kippur and my Saturday meeting times didn't mix I went to the meeting on Thursday. I'm not sure I had ever gone at that time..but wow. The ladies and leader on Thursdays at 12 were amazing. The leader Jodie had this way about her that was so positive and fun. She took time to actually make little gift like things to hand out during the meeting. This last weekly had the theme of "believe", kick starting  this lifestyle change with a  good attitude!
She made everyone bracelets that had different words that also carried a theme through the weekly handouts:
Believe   Worthy   Capable   &   Healthy 
I wanted the believe bracelet (because it was pink! & also) because although all of these words are great to describe important changes that have started to come about since the beginning of this journey.. BELIEVE was the one that started everything.
Believe
At one point I used to believe I was stuck. Even purchasing  a size 4x size T-shirt (when I was still 3x) in belief i'd be needing it soon. I hadn't thought twice about why I bought it till I started my journey and realized I was feeling that hopeless.
I started believing in myself when I started to see changes in my progress and saw success with myself. Going to meetings and having support with people who are striving for the same goals has helped me believe in myself.

Hope everyone is having a great week

Wallflovver

Weigh-In Triggers & a yummy snack!

TRIGGERS :) YAY!
So, applying for jobs has never been fun.. editing resumes and cover letters for each new application has pretty much been my year. A year..seriously. I can't help but feel a bit bad about myself after being unemployed for this long. I've been working freelance but that's not steady (though it is SOMETHING). Hearing back from employers has been a trigger for me in the past. That's what I've been working on the past few weeks.

Paying attention to these stress triggers has been helping me. At one point I found myself going to take a snack break after every job I applied to.  :/ I found that was a trigger also, I realized I got this nervous feeling after sending my applications in and that would be a trigger. KNOWING THAT HELPS. Instead make sure I have my glass of  arizona green tea /water mixture.

This weeks weigh-in :)

This week=268.8 (-2.8)

Last week= 271.6

Start Weight= 320

Total loss=51.2

It's almost time to start looking for new sneakers. My shoes I have now are just a year old and are at that point where you can see my socks right where my pinky toe is. 

Does anybody else's toes fall asleep while on the arc trainer or maybe the elliptical. I use the arc trainer, but I'd assume this would happen on an elliptical as well? It usually happens around the 20 minute mark??? 

This stuff is great! I love the peach flavor. I've noticed these are kinda ...creamier? not as thick as the original Activia. But in a good way. :) Great snack, I sprinkle a little bit  of granola on top. yum

Hope everyone had a great weekend!

-Wallflovver

Weigh-in update!

I'm still using my phone to post. For now it's just easier.  My Internet keeps logging me in and out! ahh! 

I went to my Ww meeting this morning and the leader wasn't there ( we had a sub).. But my friends from Ww that have been busy & one has been sick for a month! I feel much better having these two back in the meetings with me. 

Another yummy looking breakfast idea! 

269.2 was my weight this week!

She calculated -2 lbs but I calculated back home that its -1.6 rather... 

Ah! It confuses me so much when they mix up the numbers. 

Hope everyone has a great weekend!

It's been raining all week here -

Wallflower 

Undertheweather & weigh-in ?

What weight-in?! 

Last meeting I did the following:

1. Signed in
2. 
   
3. listen to the meeting leader
4.  talked to some friends
5.  and then left.

 Was there something I had forgot? Yes. Did I kinda sorta mean to "forget"? Yes. I meaningfully didn't weigh-in because I was scared.

I'm thinking this isn't a great habit to fall into (for myself). For instance I have a friend who doesn't like weighing-in every week... she does better not knowing for about a month or so. This is proving to be a method that doesn't really work for me. I am scared to face the fact that I may have just gained more after I thought I would start making better choices.

The Stress factor
As a freelance artist I had recently had a long issue of a "client" not paying me for work I had delivered on. I proceeded to call their place of work (leave a message), their cell phone (leave a message), E-mail them and finally text them, I did this everyday for an embarrassingly long time. They did occasionally answer (never in a returned phone call, but rather text) but it was always a vague answer and never really an answer.

Yesterday was the day after about 8 months(?) that they finally decided it was time for them to pay me. This freelance job I'm referencing was one f my first freelance Illustration jobs and I had made a pretty massive mistake right out the gate! I hadn't made an official contract, what I had was an E-mail that my client agreed to but it seems kind of informal.

Lesson Learned.

by :PEARLEDEN@deviantart.com (not mine but oh so true)
Silver Lining
On the exact day that I had finally ended my struggle on getting paid.. I was contacted for a new freelance illustration job. It also just so happens to be another logo! Here's to a fresh start with a new client.

In my last meeting someone mentioned "When you are busy, it's less likely for you to eat all day.." or something along those lines. I am home usually, job hunting and when I do take a "break" my kitchen is always right around the corner. Since I can't move the distance between my kitchen and my room I plan on filling up my schedule and being more productive.
Instead of setting alarms for only waking up maybe I'll set alarms for things that need to get done.
Weeks are flying by like nothing at the moment.
Blog entry alarm could really help me out too. haha

I'll be weighing in this week on Saturday. Even if I'm scared but hopefully won't have to be.

Good Afternoon!

Wallflovver

Weigh-In Update & a little REWIND

This Week = +1.0 lbs 

Current Weight= 267.6 lb

Start Weight = 320 lbs 

Total Lost = 52.4 lbs

Alrightyyy. Another gain..+2.8 if I add up the total between these last two weeks. So, that's super awesome fun! I do this with a lot of things. I start doing well and the next thing I know is I'm off track and hardly trying (but maybe more like  tricking myself into believing I'm trying?).

I know what works, when I want to have a good week...

So- Why is it so hard to stick with what works and what I know is good?

It feels like self sabotage!

So, I took it back to the beginning  I think I need a bit of a reminder. I'm glad I've saved all this reading material!

I guess that's what they are here for? 

I'm now finishing another booklet ( weight record books). It feels like I JUST started a new one  few weeks ago. I guess 15 (normally 16 in a booklet but one of the boxes were skipped) went by without me realizing. Maybe it's not the best way to go about thinking? But I looked at my 1st record on the booklet I'm ending now... I'm seeing I lost -9 lbs in this entire book. That's with the ups and downs...Averaging = -0.6 a week.

But looking back now, most of those weigh-ins are - not + weeks!

I'm trying to get my PS2 to ply my workout DVDs... I'm not sure what's up with my PS2 :(. I'll workout with one of those this afternoon.

This is why I Love Spare Change!

My grandma gave me a ton of pennies when I was younger....
of course I kept saving and adding to the pennies..

 This past weekend I decide it's time to see how much my collection adds up to!
Plus the drawer I was storing all my jars and coin purses in was being weighed down it was bending the drawer.. (opps!). D:

Aww! look how sad Lady looks D: lol she is so silly sometimes... 

So, next up was the trip to the bank!

the bag was pretty much all pennies so when I got the total of $61.00 I was surprised as heck!

I'm not trying to brag...but wow I'm SO SURPRISED! Very cool.

I kinda have a new love for change now!

Everyone saving jars and coin purses of small change... go chash that in for a good surprise! :)

The poof I made the last time I was feeling crafty!

Finally a picture...

The place I wanted to hang it initially turned out to be a bit of a challenge, so for now it's over my bed :P

last night: lemon chicken with honey mustard sauce and a flax seed crust!

Some had breadcrumbs and some didn't!

these were thin chicken cuts..
I also added some green onion on top. 

This was the honey mustard I used to lightly coat my chicken with.. It was a mixture of this dressing, flaxseeds, and paprika.

Thanks to some  a couple of my friends, I was told to try the Arnold Palmer Arizona. I 1st tried the awesome ¢99 cans (you can get one at a gas station anywhere)  Oh my :} I loved it! It was very refreshing! 

Good Afternoon Everyone!
Here's to a new better week :)
<3 -Wallflower

New Weigh-In Update!

Last Saturday! the 16th

This Week = -2.6 lbs 

Current Weight= 264.8 lb

Start Weight = 320 lbs 

Total Lost = 55.2 lbs

About to head out to the gym! I havn't gone for a while, on friday I felt as though my dad had given me his cold. That afternoon I started feeling my usual self again... uhh???  I'm glad I didn't get a cold, but what the heck!?

This monday one of our family friends had a family member pass, so the funeral was monday. The destination was very far away..so the day was spent traveling to and from. 

I'll be going back now! :)

yay a loss this  (past ) week

Good afternoon

-Wallflower

My Happy Valentines! & last weeks late update!

I love homemade decor :)  these ren't mind..but they should be!

This was really my 1st year actually doing something special for Valentines!  I went to go see Beautiful Creatures, in theaters.

My date was very sweet and gave me a dozen beautiful red roses and a heart shapes box of chocolates.... ( I never really mentioned to this person that I am having issues with chocolate atm or that I'm trying to be conscious of what I eat...otherwise I think it would have been different.)

I never actually pay much attention to Valentines... no biggie! So thankfully I never felt any kind of bitterness towards the day.  This Valentines was a nice change, even though it was  pretty basic night out. :) I hadn't opened the chocolates for a good 3 days (since I can't / shouldn't really be having any with the gallbladder issue) But after I did open them they didn't last thatt long. D: ahhh....

Last weeks Weigh-In Update!

This Week = +1.4lbs 

Current Weight= 267 lb

Start Weight = 320 lbs 

Total Lost = 52 lbs

good night!

-Wallflower 

Weigh-In & Workout DVDs!

This Week = -2.5 lbs 

Current Weight= 266 lb

Start Weight = 320 lbs 

Total Lost = 54 lbs

So, at some point this week it occurred to me I'm officially well into the 60's (266). I think 269or 8 were too close to the 70's, where I've been stuck at for a while. So, that's kinda super awesome to adjust to these new numbers!

One of my buddies from WW meetings was giving away some of her workout DVDs, since nobody wanted them... I took them off her hands. hahha

hahha I havn't done these yet but I plan to this weekend :)

hahah I never thought I'd own anything that had to do anything with Richard Simmons.. don't know why. Haha what a cutie!

These I made for my parents..since they requested it after dinner 

Since I'm not having chocolate atm I decided to make a fruit smoothie!

This morning I got my consultation and I'll have a scheduled date for my gallbladder being removed by monday. When I spoke to the Dr.  he said I'd be out the same day! :)

This was a late update... AHH! my weigh-in is on Saturday morning.

I'm feeling so bloated and tired (the gym helped a bit) but I don't know what the scale will be looking like. Normally I have a scale at home that is 3 lbs. off from the WW scale but the battery for that is dead.

O:
we will see!
Good night & TGIF!!!
Wallflower

Weigh-in Update & Crafts!

This Week = -.6 lbs 

Current Weight= 268.8 lbs

Start Weight = 320 lbs

Total Lost = -51.2 lbs

How is it that I'm always forgetting how much I love watermelon?! A few people recommended I  eat more watermelon and strawberries since I was having a problem getting enough fiber. I was happy to find out they will be in season sometimes very soon in March - July. :) Awesome!!!
*edit I was recommended to eat watermelon for how much water is in it..not so much the fiber it turns out.

So refreshing!  (Credit: Harsha K R/Flickr)

As for strawberries... they are okay. They are always kinda tart?
This week felt a bit uneventful.. and I just received a piece for my camera that was broken! So now I'll be able to take my own pictures again.

YAY Crafts 

I've been feeling like I need to do some crafting! You know that urge? " I need to make something with my hands..." kinda feeling.

I forgot to take a picture of the sides before I started... It was just a plain white ceramic  bowl that I've had since I was little... I never especially likes it and was about to throw it away...

But then I decided I should just bedazzle it.... So I cut out pictures from a few magazines and an Illustration from Alice In Wonderland I printed out. I have random print outs just for this reason.
THEN of course there needed to be beads glued to the top!
Sometimes I think I'm addicted to hot glueing...

I didn't really have a place to store my brushes ..so this was the perfect height for them!
(Front)

Turns out a friend of mine was giving away tons of brushes she never used. Before that I never needed a "place" for brushes. (Back)

My second project - Tissue paper flowers! There were made from coffee filters and colored with watercolors

the coffee filter flowers live here now :}

So a while back I had this same feeling and worked on ^those^ projects ... and I have one more I haven't done yet. I was waiting for some the next time I feel like making something! (now)
I bought tissue paper to make a pom pom for my room.

Seems easy enough! I'll be trying this tonight or this afternoon. :)

Have a great week!

Wallflower

Weigh-In!

1st+Here's where we are at!

This Week = -1.6 lbs 

Current Weight= 276 lb

Start Weight = 320 lbs 

Total Lost = 45.6 lbs

It was lovely out this evening!!!

So! Turns out the bike I was talking about in my last post has old dry tires....my dad told me it's in need of some tlc! I found this out after riding around a little.
 BUT THEN ! I found my brothers bikes. He has two because he get into his "kicks" it was biking for a while...so I took the more "friendly" looking bike for a ride.
UHHHHH...I have no idea how my brother sits on that seat. I'm prettyy sure that even if I weighed my ideal weight that seat would still have given me problems. I couldn't stand to go further than just around the neighborhood. The next morning I felt it, no details needed....but it was all very sore in all those kinds of areas.-haha

side note: I love the name of my seat on my old bike "CHEEKS". I'd rather ride around on those "Cheeks" anyday.

 Other than the fact that I will not be using my brother's bike anytime soon..and my need to wait a bit to get my own tires fixed, it was nice being back on a bike. We have bicycles at the gym...but it's just different. Till then, I'm still looking for soemthing that will get my weight changing again.

This routine is too much of a routine!

Last Nights YUMMY DINNER!

The other night we had shish kabobs! They were pretty darn good too.

Phew-Anyways- I'm feeling so much better being caught back up on my postings!

Goodnight Everyone

TGIF (almost)

Wallflower

WW weigh-In & a Blerg moment...

This Weeks WW Weigh-In

This Week = -4.8 lbs
Current Weight= 276 lb
Start Weight = 320 lbs 
Total Lost = 44 lbs

YAY -4.8 this week :)!! I'm glad it's kinda making up for last weeks gain! PHEWWW!


 Anyways, this friday I went to the dentist and got some much needed work done. After the dentist I felt fine and brought a change of clothes with me for the gym,
i didnt want to make excuses not to got to the gym...I figured it's my mouth that is numb..."why not!? :D"
I go and realize trying to drink water with half a numb mouth is kinda hard.  It reminded me of this little segment of a 30 Rock episode, except while on the arc trainer machine.

Blerg...

owell... at least I went to the gym once this past week. The other days were very busy with the holidays and having friends and family over.

I'd also just like to take note that I just joined the WW 8 weeks till thanksgiving challange!!!!

This is my 1st real challenge that I signed up for 

UMMMM... I found a forum dedicated to Target Halloween 2012 :}

I'm hvaing way too much fun on here -----> 

http://www.halloweenforum.com/general-halloween/118693-official-target-halloween-2012-thread.html

Hope everyone has a great weekend/ week!

Goodnight

-Wallflower

Weigh-In - A few Gains ( Good & not sooo great)

Starting Weight = 320 lbs 
This Week = +3 ( -13.8 lbs since back from school)
Lost from start = 39 lbs

BLAH! (」゜ロ゜)」This past week was a 3 lb gain!!

Buuuttt I know exactly what happened, since this week is another HOLIDAY I'll be watching to make sure this week isn't a repeat. 

We actually did some real grocery shopping yesterday.

Last week all we purchased were item to make the turkey,brisket and matzo ball soup!

Let's just say that after two nights in a row of having our "holiday dinner" plus leftovers (that we still have) we were all looking for something else to snack on. It was just a very off week :-/

This week we'll have a fast and the breaking of a fast... that will be very interesting. I know my parents will be fasting, I on the other hand have some medications I'll be eating with...otherwise I'll be fasting along with my parents. A friend of mine will be spending Yom Kippur with us this year! YAY:]

Alright, to kinda sum up my plan for the breaking of the fast...

Usualllllyyy I'd have a few bagels and whatever else....ect......ect......
**( I had one bagel this year :} )

( I havn't been home for breaking of the fast since I was in High School, so being home for all these holidays will be a new experience to learn from it seems.

Changin' up Breakfast

Oatmeal time!

On sale for buy 1 get 1!

The two I chose :]

Never expected to have a craving to try oatmeal- I remember having a bit when I was younger ( my grandparents loved the stuff!).  There was a buy 1 get 1 deal this week :} The variety packs made sense since I wasn't sure what flavors I like. 

I made mine with milk :}

The first flavor I tried was the Apple & Cinnamon in the Lower Sugar Package. It sounded great because I knew I could chop up some Golden Delicious with it! The last touch was some real cinnamon... I'm so happy I ended up loving it --- Don't know what I would have done with two boxes otherwise.

MY GOOD GAIN *other than finding a nice new breakfast option!* ( JUST SAYIN)...

I beat Katamari Damacy the other night! Like I said I would :P

hahha I play this game way too much.

yayyyyy!

I just finished cleaning the house.. It's 5 Am :/ I should probably get some sleep now.

I really need to get myself to be earlier

Goodnight!

-Wallflower

WW Weigh-In :)!!

Starting Weight = 320 lbs 
This Week = -6.6 ( -16.8 lbs since back from school)
Lost from start = 42 lbs

I lost 6.6lbs this week!! I'm almost back down to my lowest weight on this journey, very excited, proud and  relived! I was worried I'd be disappointed WW wise, this past week has been all power foods and lots (and lots) of water! 
I'll have to take note of this week....incase  I look back and really try to figure out what happened this week :]

• WATER

Drinking water like nobody's business..- I peed a ton this past week, just sayin.

• Power foods

Another goal for this past week was to try and keep things as natural and whole as possible. This lead to a lot of power foods..

• I really kept track of Sodium, cholesterol and saturated fats...

• Portion control 

This was a big one & I'm still working on it!

 The lowest I've been while on this journey is about 3 lbs away!!!

Publix had another deal this past week for buy 1 get 1 free

cantaloupe was this weeks miracle snack!

Sweet-Potato Casserole 

My favorite dish to make for the holidays

I made some tweaks that went unnoticed ( in a good way)

added WAY less brown sugar than I usually would...

We had or Rosh Hashanah Dinner last night, our fridge literally only has a huge turkey, brisket, matzo ball soup and sweet-potato casserole in it...

As for the gym, I think we are going back on wednesday! It figures that this week gets a little more difficult after a good  loss :P 

LAST BUT NOT LEAST! (totally unrelated!!)

I just want to let everyone know I'll be beating the last level of Katamari Damacy for PS2 tonight...

no doubt about it! (maybeeee)

Good afternoon everyone!

-Wallflovver