Facing my fears (the scale)

Tonights Dinner! Sushi with Brown Rice

Last week I never weighed in knowing full well it wouldn't be great news. That wasn't the best way to go about trying to fix the problem. I'n the process of not knowing how much I had gained  since last weekend I've been in the dark for two weeks till this weekend! Horray! :(

This mornings breakfast 1 slice of salami and 2 regular eggs

This week I walked into the WW meeting looking to start with a fresh outlook on my weigh-ins. The women weighing me in is a fellow member and sits in on the meetings. Just recently she started helping with the weigh-ins. Anyways, sometimes when you weigh-in, the person that fills in the cards really makes a difference. Sometimes it's just "you are a little up this week".. instead she offered her feelings on how it's just a bump in the road and so on... that made it a little less horrible but I still am facing  this past weeks numbers.

Last week= 271.2 
This week= 276.2 (+5)
Start Weight= 320
Total loss= 48.8

Turns out when I was feeling "under the weather" last post I had no clue it would get worse. I thought it was one of those couple days kinda sore throats.. I ended up making a trip to the Dr. on friday to get some medicine for my "head cold". Nope!  I have a viral infection.. it's almost gone at this point but I lost my voice for a better part of the day yesterday. 

Does anybody else have an obsession with trying to organize everything?! I think I do. 
I finally decided it would be a good idea to get a day planner. 
Let me just say .. I'm veryy excited to have ordered one. I'll be getting it sometime next month, so today has been all about pre-organizing before my planner gets here.

I was choosing between these two :) I chose the one on the right. I searched for a while and finally found one  that was exactly what I wanted. I read lots of great reviews.

Time management has always been such a  challenge for me, I honestly wonder how people "just do it". I need reminders, charts and lists. ( how horrible is it that all of the above just excites me??)

Getting better (in more way than one..)

Hope everyone had a great weekend!

Wallflovver

ECXITED!!! (What did I miss!?)

Update: 
I'm still on the WW program, I actually signed up for the Monthly Pass (it's cheaper than paying every week).
The last time I weighed in (here) I was 266.4

Currently I'm= 270.4
Start Weight= 320
Total loss= 49 

I was off track and gained 5lbs while on 'vacation' for a few weeks!
Not okay! especially since it was so hard getting out of 270's in the 1st place.

Since my last entry, I have not been on Blogger at all! Let me just say, sincerely.. it feels so homey seeing everyones posts again and seeing the different blogs/ styles of writings and so on... (it's like walking back into your home after being away for a long time and seeing where you left all your things..)

So to continue with this (blog/ everyones blog) as another great weightloss tool..

It's also kind of funny because tonight a show I found very inspiring is coming back to air! TONIGHT! kinda excited? YES!

ABC's Extreme Makeover 

Weigh-loss Edition with Chris Powell!

It may be a bit of a turn off to some people( it being a tv show and so on) but I love the show and have found it useful in my own weigh-loss journey. This show was almost like my weekly reminder of what I was doing and that it's all very possible. Not easy but possible :)

more info on the show: http://beta.abc.go.com/shows/extreme-weight-loss

It's nice being home sweet home (blog wise) haha

Good Night!

Wallflovver

New Weigh-In Update!

Last Saturday! the 16th

This Week = -2.6 lbs 

Current Weight= 264.8 lb

Start Weight = 320 lbs 

Total Lost = 55.2 lbs

About to head out to the gym! I havn't gone for a while, on friday I felt as though my dad had given me his cold. That afternoon I started feeling my usual self again... uhh???  I'm glad I didn't get a cold, but what the heck!?

This monday one of our family friends had a family member pass, so the funeral was monday. The destination was very far away..so the day was spent traveling to and from. 

I'll be going back now! :)

yay a loss this  (past ) week

Good afternoon

-Wallflower

YAY! -50 lbs :) Weigh-In Update!!

This Week = -2.2 lbs 
Current Weight= 269.4 lbs
Start Weight = 320 lbs
Total Lost = -50.6 lbs

:)

YAY!!! OH MY GOODNESS!!! Hello -50!

It's taken a while to get to this 50 lb. mark but it's finally here. This past week had an interesting twist at the end. It could be a result of weight loss and foods I've eaten in the past. But I'm not going to let this take away from how happy I am about getting to -50 lbs!

Now I'll be dealing with gallstones :{

I was in severe pain the other night, I woke up my parents to take me to the ER.
Turns out I've had gallstones for a while, it just started to come to light the other night! I was taken care of for the night, then went home to get some rest. Before I left the nurse was talking about how I'll be on a Bland Diet till I get the surgery. ( I've looked it up and saw that after the gallbladder is gone, diet will change then also)

The Bland Diet is calling for some very sudden changes in diet...I'll be on the bland diet for at least two weeks. Honestly, I'm  afraid to eat something wrong... it was so panful the other night! So far tonight I've had chicken broth with noodles and carrots. Thankfully I've had time to do more research before grocery shopping this afternoon.

I've found many of the lists of Bland diets & Galbladder diets contradict each other.. or at least there are a lot of items on these diets that get canceled out .
I just got back from the Grocery and found
I was specifically told to drink water (a lot), no eggs, no fatty greasy foods (urmkay!) Less than 3% fat generally, no tomatos, brocoli...raw veggies.

Chicken & Veggie Broths
Pudding (jello brand) & tapioca pudding ( the few puddings w/o egg)
Lean Turkey
Chicken
Mixed Veggies (for soup and rice..)
Rice
Nilla Wafers (ff)
Apple sauce
Bananas
And Fish..
Of course there are other things...but this will be about it for me from what I was told.
Cheerios and I are going to become besties!

All in all I'm trying not to use the pain meds that were given to cover the pain that I may have up till surgery time! ( in about two weeks or so)

Thankfully none of the gallbladder isues are going to interfere with time at the gym! I got in my usual time in at the gym nd then back at home I was in the mood to keep moving. 

Pictures from this past week!

Breakfast from this past week. Special K's Chocolatey Strawberry Cereal   with some Almond Breeze and a banana. :}

Breakfast from this past week. Two eggs and spinach with reduced fat mozzarella on top.

Giving Vanilla Pudding a shot, now that chocolate (and chocolate flavored anythings) are out for a bit :/
Also trying the reduced fat Nilla Wafers...pretty yummy!

I have no idea who's these are.. I asked everyone in our house! Nobody claimed em' :} So I've been using these for a few months.

Keeping my WW key ring someplace I see it every morning :) Infront of my mirror. It's a great reminder of where I am and where I'd like to be.

Hope everyone had a good week!

Good night!

-Wallflower

Chobani Grapes+Nuts+PB&J

CHOBANI + GRAPES+ NUTS+ PB&J 

This is a small bowl, so inside I have 3 full tbs of the Chobani Vanilla Greek Yogurt (3 pts for 6oz.)

1tsp of Smuckers strawberry Jelly ( 1 pt)

1 tsp of Skippy's Reduced fat Peanut Butter ( 2pts)

About 4 or 5 cut up grapes ( 0 pts) :]

and a few nuts to top it all off ( 1pts)

Total of 7pts WW

I got this total from using an online Points Plus Calculator. I've been having trouble finding my calculator after moving! 

Calculator I've been using

I found this interesting recipe on Skinnytaste

and was surpisd I had even tried it hahaha, not that it doesn't look good, but the last time i tried greek yogurt..I was not  fan. I gave it another shot , I'm glad I did because this was a surprising treat.

The nuts really made this a treat, the added crunch was just perfect.

oh yeah and it was soo easy to make!

 Haha, so even though this my look strange... I'd still give it a shot, because like I said I'm glad I did. Plus Gina from skinny taste made it look so good!

Good night!

Wallflovver

Fresh Florida Oranges & blueberry wine! 36th WW Weigh-In

Staying the same-ish.... 

It's crazy when your state is known for something, like oranges, then  you find some of the produce in the market isn't local... hahah what?

I miss having orange trees around

Before hurricanes ruined our trees, we had several fruit trees on our yards. I remember spending an evening with my family making fresh orange juice for the house! :]

Anyways, I found some local oranges this week! I also was on the search for a blue wine bottle for a project I had last week.  It took a while but I found a blue bottle, it just so happened the wine was also from Florida :}.  Took a while to actually have  taste since I've been busy with projects. I decided to finally give it a try last night, just a sip, since I was still working on projects. The blueberry wine was actually very good!

here's their site!
 http://www.keelandcurleywinery.com/wines/blueberry-sweet.php

also a link to a site showing a group visiting the winery :]
http://www.barefootinfloridawithjulie.com/field_trip_16.html

Good afternoon!

Wallflower

4th Weight Watchers Weigh in!

This is exciting & scary because I did very well this week! At least for me thinking about how last week was 2 pound loss that it would be a little less or around that same number.Well, shows what I know!

• This week I lost 7.6 lb's :]
•  Down to 299 lbs! 
• My Total Loss: 20.6 lbs!

Haha it was funny I came into the meeting before anybody & the leader was in the front, so I was just going to get weighed in the front. No problem, I got weighed in the front...(at this point I hadn't seen the scale numbers *not expecting anything special*). The meeting leader says "Wow, let's go to the back and check if that's right". Still not knowing what it was in the first place go to the back & weigh in again. I was thankful since I would sincerely like to know how I'm doing. I'm still standing there looking at 299.8 (OH! That means UNDER 300...uhh yes please, that was my summer goal before I get back to school.  College is starting back up in about 6 weeks! ) & not reacting at all. haha I don't think I realized till she said "Wow, you don't seem surprised or excited!"
- haha anyways, I was of course but it just took me longer than usual to realize what just went on :P

This is how I felt inside!

1st of all I'm scared because I don't know what I did differently this week. * Other than running out of Arizona tea & having to just drink water. BUT!!!- even when I did have Arizona I made an effort to fill half or more of my cup with water. I'm going to look at that more, since that's all I have to go on for now.  I'll look back at my tracker and see what I did differently without realizing maybe!?


Now I just need to keep myself from expecting anything for next week.I'd like to keep from setting myself up for disappointment.

On with the journey

+ The gym was great today. Since it was a pretty stormy afternoon there were more people than usual. I see this cycling class going on *looks kinda intense* & I'd like to try that one of these days before I get back to school.

Tonights Dinner for 4 Points *Plus

Since I'm really not a marinara person most of the time I kept mine plain :] I've been looking online for this brand of  pasta... & I realize now  Mimi's Ravioli actually started these products "Good Health". This Shop is our go to place for getting really great fresh Italian food.

MIMI'S RAVIOLI WEBSITE - if you are a local in South Florida
http://www.mimisravioli.com/goodhealth/gh.htm

I am on the Points Plus program with Weight Watchers & I calculated how much these manicotti logs would be :] 2pts for each log! that's great since it was super filling & delicious.

Nutrition Facts on the back (I write how many points things are on the boxes when possible)

I should make a list some day soon! it will help when I get back to college :]

Plain jane,no marinara sauce and lettuce on the side! this really was great though & I love plain lettuce leaves on the side of most dinners. :]

close up on the insides! & it's whole wheat :] what a deal

• Side Notes!
• Tomorrow is my next weigh in
• I went to the gym & worked out for more than two hours today
• I'll be going tomorrow also , I'm looking forward to working out these days!
• & I'm nurvouse about my weight in.I don;t know why because I haven't done anything wrong @ least not that I know of. It's scary because I can't tell I lost .6 or a pound & so on.

Find out soon enough!

- Goodnight!

Wallflower

Happy 4th of July!

Normally I'd be going to a friends house for the 4th :) this year turned out a little differently & that is okay :)

We didn't grill,like we had planned either! Over the weekend I had looked up a recipe for turkey balls.We had to call in advance to get the ground turkey from the butcher. The recipe I used was from Food Network :


http://www.foodnetwork.com/recipes/giada-de-laurentiis/mini-turkey-meatballs-recipe/index.html
Here is a link to the recipe

mmm!

We need to buy more pam ,instead we used broth to keep them from getting too dry SO that's what's at the bottom of the pan. Baked instead of fried in a pan.

Green & Yellow Peppers, Zucchini & Onions 

I had to modify the recipe since we do keep kosher at my parents.This turned out so great! My dad was very skeptical when we told him we would be having TURKEY BALLS instead of meatballs.He ended up eating fish sticks. Although I did offer him a bit & after he tried the turkey balls he told me he would be a team player next time & eat them with us.HAHA he would only say that if he liked them :)

Something else we were planing did not turn out quite right.. I wanted to make a dessert that would be fresh & something everyone could have. We couldn't find all the ingredients! Maybe another time :P But I still think it's a cute idea *angel  food cake *whipped cream (light) * blueberries * yes please.


Light whipped cream recipe!
http://www.eatingwell.com/recipes/light_whipped_cream.html

I went for a walk today! The gym closed early today :P I didn't get up in enough time.
I did go yesterday though :) & plan to go tomorrow.

Goodnight!

-Wallflower

3rd week weigh in!

This week at my weigh in I went down 2.6 pounds  totaling 12.6. *& yes I'm counting the .6 haha! I don't know exactly how long it's been since I was out of the 300's  but the idea of being out of them :) THAT would be awesome!

Disney is the ultra happy place & any amount lost feels pretty great!  

Now that I've lost 2 this week I feel like this will be the average from now on & that is just fine :} but I'll admit it was cool to have those numbers the 1st few weeks.

It's been getting a little harder. I hate what I look like now & my mom brought up how I haven't seen any of my friends from home since I've been back. I've been home for 8 weeks. This has been a thing with me for a long time , I'll admit I don't feel like I'm worth hanging out with. To sum it all up my self-esteem is close to none existant.


Today seemed more like a bump in the road.

1.) woke up around 8. :)
2.) made myself some egg whites & whole wheat toast *with mushroom & onion! :)
3.) fed my fish :)
4.) ended up in bed in my gym clothes.

all slumberland & no workout makes wallflower a sad girl

I SLEPT from 10-ish to frink'n.... 4 in the afternoon! wow THAT can't happen again.
& this is after a good night's sleep about 8 hours. 15 hours of sleep no gym,no nothing.

I know I don't have to go to the gym everyday & I don't. I think I'm more dissipated in myself because I ended up sleeping instead & I was planning on going. Self sabotage - not worth it & that is what it felt like- to me at least.

Goodnight!

-Wallflower