NSV/ Goal Clothes/ Meds? & Weigh-in

An urn flower I found outback

I had to stop an admire the sky for a few.. other than those 5 minutes, the rest of the weekend it rained. Glad I could capture this rarity.

This week=271.2

Last week= 270.8

Start Weight= 320

Total loss=48.8

Alright.. here it goes...
Remember I said my doctor may have warned me about gaining a bit on the pill I started ( waited till monday to start) after my last Dr. Visit? If not- she did. I also figured I better not actually think "I'm going to gain b/c of my pill" or else that may just give me an "oh, well" attitude..
Knowing this I eat as clean as I was when I was losing in past weeks. Stretching, doing little exercises during the day when there were small chunks of time. As Well as going to the gym and swimming for an hour on the say I had gym, but couldn't go because my side was hurting. (BTW The pool was an amazing saviour at that point.)

Alright, well my point is with all the work I put in this week, going in knowing I had new meds... I came out gaining half a pound. Sure it's not permanent... but BOY WAS I SHOCKED. Kinda just stood there wondering...this scale...*squinting* kinda wondering if it was my position on the scale.- yeah right! haha. Maybe I took it hard because I was so close to 50! AH!

I'll keep an eye on it, there are a few alternatives to this medicine so I'll see what happens this next weekend.. or I may ask about some alternatives.

NSV!!
I may have mentioned I found out I'm no longer size 12 shoe! Now I can finally shop for size 10 shoe... I think's been a long while since I've looked in the 10's.  Oh, so many more selections. Hunting for size 11/ 12 was kinda like treasure hunting sometimes.

So when I found out, I was trying on these shoes I seriously just loved, I tried it on in 12. Nope- too big, that happens (no biggie) moving on to 11... no again. I was about to just give up but then I saw the same pair in 10.

Wishfull thinking, I try them on- what a fluke! they fit. I try on almost all the 10's at that point. One after another. It took awhile for me to catch on, seriously! this must be why all most of my shoes back home have been slipping off when I walk. DUH. I think I live on another planet sometimes. Feet shrink, now I know.

Size 10! So proud! Is that silly? Plus these were majorly on sale- win win.

This is not my final goal "outfit" top, but I did order it keeping in mind it may be a little tight. I don't usually buy clothes online but I saw this top and thought "okay, if this doesn't fit when I get it.. I could be a good goal top..". That's pretty much what ended up happening since it was a bit tight around the lower area.. near my hips.

this shirt is a 3x from Forever 21 Plus ( I love love love how all designers run smaller or larger for the "same sizes")
Let's just make it all universal. I don't think  anybody would mind...right?

I love the colllar and the cute buttons. 

So far this post proves something, I seem to be a polkadot fan. Just noticed.

Have a good weekend/ week!

Wallflovver

Facing my fears (the scale)

Tonights Dinner! Sushi with Brown Rice

Last week I never weighed in knowing full well it wouldn't be great news. That wasn't the best way to go about trying to fix the problem. I'n the process of not knowing how much I had gained  since last weekend I've been in the dark for two weeks till this weekend! Horray! :(

This mornings breakfast 1 slice of salami and 2 regular eggs

This week I walked into the WW meeting looking to start with a fresh outlook on my weigh-ins. The women weighing me in is a fellow member and sits in on the meetings. Just recently she started helping with the weigh-ins. Anyways, sometimes when you weigh-in, the person that fills in the cards really makes a difference. Sometimes it's just "you are a little up this week".. instead she offered her feelings on how it's just a bump in the road and so on... that made it a little less horrible but I still am facing  this past weeks numbers.

Last week= 271.2 
This week= 276.2 (+5)
Start Weight= 320
Total loss= 48.8

Turns out when I was feeling "under the weather" last post I had no clue it would get worse. I thought it was one of those couple days kinda sore throats.. I ended up making a trip to the Dr. on friday to get some medicine for my "head cold". Nope!  I have a viral infection.. it's almost gone at this point but I lost my voice for a better part of the day yesterday. 

Does anybody else have an obsession with trying to organize everything?! I think I do. 
I finally decided it would be a good idea to get a day planner. 
Let me just say .. I'm veryy excited to have ordered one. I'll be getting it sometime next month, so today has been all about pre-organizing before my planner gets here.

I was choosing between these two :) I chose the one on the right. I searched for a while and finally found one  that was exactly what I wanted. I read lots of great reviews.

Time management has always been such a  challenge for me, I honestly wonder how people "just do it". I need reminders, charts and lists. ( how horrible is it that all of the above just excites me??)

Getting better (in more way than one..)

Hope everyone had a great weekend!

Wallflovver

Weigh-In Update & a little REWIND

This Week = +1.0 lbs 

Current Weight= 267.6 lb

Start Weight = 320 lbs 

Total Lost = 52.4 lbs

Alrightyyy. Another gain..+2.8 if I add up the total between these last two weeks. So, that's super awesome fun! I do this with a lot of things. I start doing well and the next thing I know is I'm off track and hardly trying (but maybe more like  tricking myself into believing I'm trying?).

I know what works, when I want to have a good week...

So- Why is it so hard to stick with what works and what I know is good?

It feels like self sabotage!

So, I took it back to the beginning  I think I need a bit of a reminder. I'm glad I've saved all this reading material!

I guess that's what they are here for? 

I'm now finishing another booklet ( weight record books). It feels like I JUST started a new one  few weeks ago. I guess 15 (normally 16 in a booklet but one of the boxes were skipped) went by without me realizing. Maybe it's not the best way to go about thinking? But I looked at my 1st record on the booklet I'm ending now... I'm seeing I lost -9 lbs in this entire book. That's with the ups and downs...Averaging = -0.6 a week.

But looking back now, most of those weigh-ins are - not + weeks!

I'm trying to get my PS2 to ply my workout DVDs... I'm not sure what's up with my PS2 :(. I'll workout with one of those this afternoon.

This is why I Love Spare Change!

My grandma gave me a ton of pennies when I was younger....
of course I kept saving and adding to the pennies..

 This past weekend I decide it's time to see how much my collection adds up to!
Plus the drawer I was storing all my jars and coin purses in was being weighed down it was bending the drawer.. (opps!). D:

Aww! look how sad Lady looks D: lol she is so silly sometimes... 

So, next up was the trip to the bank!

the bag was pretty much all pennies so when I got the total of $61.00 I was surprised as heck!

I'm not trying to brag...but wow I'm SO SURPRISED! Very cool.

I kinda have a new love for change now!

Everyone saving jars and coin purses of small change... go chash that in for a good surprise! :)

The poof I made the last time I was feeling crafty!

Finally a picture...

The place I wanted to hang it initially turned out to be a bit of a challenge, so for now it's over my bed :P

last night: lemon chicken with honey mustard sauce and a flax seed crust!

Some had breadcrumbs and some didn't!

these were thin chicken cuts..
I also added some green onion on top. 

This was the honey mustard I used to lightly coat my chicken with.. It was a mixture of this dressing, flaxseeds, and paprika.

Thanks to some  a couple of my friends, I was told to try the Arnold Palmer Arizona. I 1st tried the awesome ¢99 cans (you can get one at a gas station anywhere)  Oh my :} I loved it! It was very refreshing! 

Good Afternoon Everyone!
Here's to a new better week :)
<3 -Wallflower

Weigh-In Update Sat Feb,23rd

This Week = +1.8 lbs 

Current Weight= 266.6 lb

Start Weight = 320 lbs 

Total Lost = 53.4 lbs

This week was a gain :( I think I went sugar/ sweets crazy! But that's out of my system now. I'm looking forward to a great upcoming week! :)

Atm, I'm looking up some recipes I could make for my dad's birthday night. His 63rd birthday is on Wed the 27th. :) I'll be making a nice dinner home and later on in the week we'll all go out as a family.

I'm also doing this while I'm waiting to watch the new episode of Girls on HBO.

lovvvee this show,  Lena Dunham (the creator) is a huge inspiration.

Anyways! I'm looking forward to having a positive week :)

Goodnight!!

-Wallflower

The Big Gain Theory

The Big Bang Gain Theory


I'm awake at 3:51 AM- Good morning!
Since I'm wired & am hardly sleepy I thought I'd update a little.
It's not really a theory... it's  fact. I've gained and I'm at 280.
I was at 274 ish for a while... now I've gained- it's scary, but maybe that's good so I get back on track. Since I was very much off track, I am not proud of what I was eating AT ALL. I never even liked Taco Bell before this past year!
Soooo these 6 or so pounds back into the 280's have scared me. Old habits I haven't had problems with are coming back to bite me in my Taco eating butt.

I have two months left till graduation!

This semester I've learned

1.  I eat when i'm stressed
2. I eat to get my mind off of something
3. I also eat while having ll nighters- these are the worst 
4. My roommate loving taco bell doesn't help ( it's not her fault at all haha, it's all me eating them tacos!)

goodnight! sleep time

wallflower