Facing my fears (the scale)

Tonights Dinner! Sushi with Brown Rice

Last week I never weighed in knowing full well it wouldn't be great news. That wasn't the best way to go about trying to fix the problem. I'n the process of not knowing how much I had gained  since last weekend I've been in the dark for two weeks till this weekend! Horray! :(

This mornings breakfast 1 slice of salami and 2 regular eggs

This week I walked into the WW meeting looking to start with a fresh outlook on my weigh-ins. The women weighing me in is a fellow member and sits in on the meetings. Just recently she started helping with the weigh-ins. Anyways, sometimes when you weigh-in, the person that fills in the cards really makes a difference. Sometimes it's just "you are a little up this week".. instead she offered her feelings on how it's just a bump in the road and so on... that made it a little less horrible but I still am facing  this past weeks numbers.

Last week= 271.2 
This week= 276.2 (+5)
Start Weight= 320
Total loss= 48.8

Turns out when I was feeling "under the weather" last post I had no clue it would get worse. I thought it was one of those couple days kinda sore throats.. I ended up making a trip to the Dr. on friday to get some medicine for my "head cold". Nope!  I have a viral infection.. it's almost gone at this point but I lost my voice for a better part of the day yesterday. 

Does anybody else have an obsession with trying to organize everything?! I think I do. 
I finally decided it would be a good idea to get a day planner. 
Let me just say .. I'm veryy excited to have ordered one. I'll be getting it sometime next month, so today has been all about pre-organizing before my planner gets here.

I was choosing between these two :) I chose the one on the right. I searched for a while and finally found one  that was exactly what I wanted. I read lots of great reviews.

Time management has always been such a  challenge for me, I honestly wonder how people "just do it". I need reminders, charts and lists. ( how horrible is it that all of the above just excites me??)

Getting better (in more way than one..)

Hope everyone had a great weekend!

Wallflovver

Undertheweather & weigh-in ?

What weight-in?! 

Last meeting I did the following:

1. Signed in
2. 
   
3. listen to the meeting leader
4.  talked to some friends
5.  and then left.

 Was there something I had forgot? Yes. Did I kinda sorta mean to "forget"? Yes. I meaningfully didn't weigh-in because I was scared.

I'm thinking this isn't a great habit to fall into (for myself). For instance I have a friend who doesn't like weighing-in every week... she does better not knowing for about a month or so. This is proving to be a method that doesn't really work for me. I am scared to face the fact that I may have just gained more after I thought I would start making better choices.

The Stress factor
As a freelance artist I had recently had a long issue of a "client" not paying me for work I had delivered on. I proceeded to call their place of work (leave a message), their cell phone (leave a message), E-mail them and finally text them, I did this everyday for an embarrassingly long time. They did occasionally answer (never in a returned phone call, but rather text) but it was always a vague answer and never really an answer.

Yesterday was the day after about 8 months(?) that they finally decided it was time for them to pay me. This freelance job I'm referencing was one f my first freelance Illustration jobs and I had made a pretty massive mistake right out the gate! I hadn't made an official contract, what I had was an E-mail that my client agreed to but it seems kind of informal.

Lesson Learned.

by :PEARLEDEN@deviantart.com (not mine but oh so true)
Silver Lining
On the exact day that I had finally ended my struggle on getting paid.. I was contacted for a new freelance illustration job. It also just so happens to be another logo! Here's to a fresh start with a new client.

In my last meeting someone mentioned "When you are busy, it's less likely for you to eat all day.." or something along those lines. I am home usually, job hunting and when I do take a "break" my kitchen is always right around the corner. Since I can't move the distance between my kitchen and my room I plan on filling up my schedule and being more productive.
Instead of setting alarms for only waking up maybe I'll set alarms for things that need to get done.
Weeks are flying by like nothing at the moment.
Blog entry alarm could really help me out too. haha

I'll be weighing in this week on Saturday. Even if I'm scared but hopefully won't have to be.

Good Afternoon!

Wallflovver

ECXITED!!! (What did I miss!?)

Update: 
I'm still on the WW program, I actually signed up for the Monthly Pass (it's cheaper than paying every week).
The last time I weighed in (here) I was 266.4

Currently I'm= 270.4
Start Weight= 320
Total loss= 49 

I was off track and gained 5lbs while on 'vacation' for a few weeks!
Not okay! especially since it was so hard getting out of 270's in the 1st place.

Since my last entry, I have not been on Blogger at all! Let me just say, sincerely.. it feels so homey seeing everyones posts again and seeing the different blogs/ styles of writings and so on... (it's like walking back into your home after being away for a long time and seeing where you left all your things..)

So to continue with this (blog/ everyones blog) as another great weightloss tool..

It's also kind of funny because tonight a show I found very inspiring is coming back to air! TONIGHT! kinda excited? YES!

ABC's Extreme Makeover 

Weigh-loss Edition with Chris Powell!

It may be a bit of a turn off to some people( it being a tv show and so on) but I love the show and have found it useful in my own weigh-loss journey. This show was almost like my weekly reminder of what I was doing and that it's all very possible. Not easy but possible :)

more info on the show: http://beta.abc.go.com/shows/extreme-weight-loss

It's nice being home sweet home (blog wise) haha

Good Night!

Wallflovver

Testing testing ( small update) (-:

1st things 1st
There are a few first things. I am carefully typing this post through my phone! This is very exciting! Hello everybody! I'm new to the 2000's! Seriously excited... There is a blogger app and weight watchers app. The weight watchers app will be of more use when I become a monthly member. (I've been paying by week)! So all those things are probably more exciting than they should be!

My next 1st thing (haha) is I finally had my gallbladder removed! The surgery was 11am yesterday the 29th. Everything went well :) and I suppose I'll be recovering for a little. I forgot to weigh- in on Thursday ( since Ww meetings in my area ,at least don't happen on Friday mornings).

I've been sleeping a lot and pre- made myself lots of yummy matzo ball soup beforehand! Btw happy Passover and almost Easter.

Some of my frustrations that keep me from updating are
1. My slow horrible terrible Internet connection in my room

That's about it... Some good news now is this app. The wifi on my phone is way better :/ weird hu? Same wifi different devices. I had my computer " fixed" once and now it's just not the same. That was a while ago! Anywho, I'll be stopping now haha.
So, recovering, sleeping, blogger and Netflix app (another omg wtf thank you) liquids and the unfortunate getting up and sitting down to pee! Tmi? Sorry :p I'm not seeing anyway to add pictures at this very moment!
Back to sleep! These meds are heavy duty! I'm hoping when I look back at what I wrote I wasn't just pressing numbers and symbols!

Last thing!!! I love this!! Found how to add pics! Here are some from the past week ! You know, Passover, dogs, and more Passover :)

Good morning
Wallflower <3

Weigh-In & Birthday things!

This Week = -1.2 lbs 

Current Weight= 266.4 lb

Start Weight = 320 lbs 

Total Lost = 53.6 lbs

This week was a loss! YAY

So, there are a few events coming up very soon! Passover will be starting this monday! How exciting ( but not really...it has got to be one of my least favorite jewish holidays..)!

Then later on in the week I'll finally be getting my galbladder surgery out of the way. It's been a long time coming. I'll be glad to have it done and start recovering already.

My birthday was great, I finally got to spend a birthday home with my family! The last four years I've been in College and my birthday is close to finals and all. :P So this year it was a bit different. 

The secret birthday box was opened!

Crunchies! "I'll be having these responsibly.." lol

I wonder how many people have tried these before? Milk chocolate with a honey comb inside!

Thanks :) 

For dinner we all went out to Bonefish Grill

I got the Lily's Chicken

it has artichoke hearts in top aswell as some delicious goat cheese...

I ended up not having all the goat cheese..but from what I tasted it was enough and very good!

Bonefish Grill gifted me a birthday chocolate :) Thanks!
there are strawberries sprinkled on top

I had a great 24th Birthday :)

+ loss this week !

Goodnight

Wallflower

Weigh-in!! Secret Birthday Present!!!?

This Week = +1.0 lbs 

Current Weight= 267.6 lb

Start Weight = 320 lbs 

Total Lost = 52.4 lbs

What  a busy week(s)!!

Alrighty, so this past week was a gain. Do I want to elaborate on my gain? 

Other than the fact that I snacked a lot? Nope! I'm 100% sure that's why I gained!

SO NOW...

 It's now almost time for my next weigh-in!!!

Less snacking this week (yes, check!)

I don't have too much to update on  weigh-loss wise.

It's my 24th Birthday today! :) 

Hello Spring !!:)

I've been waiting more than a week to open this secret surprise birthday present!

Thanks to a good friend! :)

I've been using an ancient fossil of a phone for manyyyy years now, my family finally upgraded. I have a phone that I can take video and pictures with :) (big deal? yes! -to me!! :)  yay)  So much more convenient! I was thinking of getting a new camera that would record and be more compact and convenient for everyday. So, instead now I have a phone that can do it all. Hello 2013 goodbye 1990's!

Anyways, this time next week I'll be having my surgery! :) That's the next one!
Then after that..I'll be doing some healing and back to regular :)

Happy Spring everyone!

-Wallflower

Weigh-In Update & a little REWIND

This Week = +1.0 lbs 

Current Weight= 267.6 lb

Start Weight = 320 lbs 

Total Lost = 52.4 lbs

Alrightyyy. Another gain..+2.8 if I add up the total between these last two weeks. So, that's super awesome fun! I do this with a lot of things. I start doing well and the next thing I know is I'm off track and hardly trying (but maybe more like  tricking myself into believing I'm trying?).

I know what works, when I want to have a good week...

So- Why is it so hard to stick with what works and what I know is good?

It feels like self sabotage!

So, I took it back to the beginning  I think I need a bit of a reminder. I'm glad I've saved all this reading material!

I guess that's what they are here for? 

I'm now finishing another booklet ( weight record books). It feels like I JUST started a new one  few weeks ago. I guess 15 (normally 16 in a booklet but one of the boxes were skipped) went by without me realizing. Maybe it's not the best way to go about thinking? But I looked at my 1st record on the booklet I'm ending now... I'm seeing I lost -9 lbs in this entire book. That's with the ups and downs...Averaging = -0.6 a week.

But looking back now, most of those weigh-ins are - not + weeks!

I'm trying to get my PS2 to ply my workout DVDs... I'm not sure what's up with my PS2 :(. I'll workout with one of those this afternoon.

This is why I Love Spare Change!

My grandma gave me a ton of pennies when I was younger....
of course I kept saving and adding to the pennies..

 This past weekend I decide it's time to see how much my collection adds up to!
Plus the drawer I was storing all my jars and coin purses in was being weighed down it was bending the drawer.. (opps!). D:

Aww! look how sad Lady looks D: lol she is so silly sometimes... 

So, next up was the trip to the bank!

the bag was pretty much all pennies so when I got the total of $61.00 I was surprised as heck!

I'm not trying to brag...but wow I'm SO SURPRISED! Very cool.

I kinda have a new love for change now!

Everyone saving jars and coin purses of small change... go chash that in for a good surprise! :)

The poof I made the last time I was feeling crafty!

Finally a picture...

The place I wanted to hang it initially turned out to be a bit of a challenge, so for now it's over my bed :P

last night: lemon chicken with honey mustard sauce and a flax seed crust!

Some had breadcrumbs and some didn't!

these were thin chicken cuts..
I also added some green onion on top. 

This was the honey mustard I used to lightly coat my chicken with.. It was a mixture of this dressing, flaxseeds, and paprika.

Thanks to some  a couple of my friends, I was told to try the Arnold Palmer Arizona. I 1st tried the awesome ¢99 cans (you can get one at a gas station anywhere)  Oh my :} I loved it! It was very refreshing! 

Good Afternoon Everyone!
Here's to a new better week :)
<3 -Wallflower