Keeping the positive thoughts going

Distractions! I seriously need some. This means MOVIE TIME & tonight is a Moonstruck night!

Just one of the many movies I get urges to see ever so often. There are so many great scenes in this movie. Also! How bad of me is it that I want eggs in a basket every time I watch this movie..?

& maybe I will one of these days! when I find some good whole wheat bread I'd like to have for breakfast. This will be on my mind from now until I DO have it :].

Tomorrow is my next weigh in! I'm actually pretty nervous , earlier this week I weighed myself & really shouldn't  have. I know the point is not to drive yourself mad by weighing yourself everyday... { & I don't } but I did the other day. I think it was monday & I was at the gym, what can  say, curiosity got the best of me. The scale read 301...meaning for 1.) back in the 300's 

NOW I know it's only by a little & all but I was disappointed to see that number again.

Since then I just feel bigger than before & am feeling less motivated.

That's on one level. On the other hand I know I can't let this hurt me & it will pass. I haven't done anything that SHOULD make me feel nervous about weighing in tomorrow, but the feeling is there.

Just been thinking about that a lot this week. 

ALSO + CONFESSION TIME -(Tuesday) I didn't track for a full day this week!

Not because what I was eating was horrible or anything.But let's face it.. I was being lazy.

 :[ I don't want this to be the start of something bad. I have since kept my tracking going as usual.

I have been going to the gym. 3 or 4 times this week. At least THAT is in my tracker.

Crossing my fingers for tomorrow! 

Goodnight!

-Wallflower

Sweet Potato Fries [ Baked ]

Tonight we grilled!

I never got the final shot of the grilled chicken! :[ ugh. I guess we were all very hungry. Those pieces of chicken were HUGE!!! Everyone had one & that was more than plenty * I say this because, my brother can usually polish off about 3 pieces of chicken normally *

To marinate we used the Catalina Dressing that is on the side of the bowl. I'll figure out the points _____

Instead of frozen fries *that I wouldn't have eaten anyway* I opted to make sweet potato fries. These turned out so great & as you can see I took many pictures. * all kinda the same haha.

I cutt the potato into small thin strips so it would get a  crunch and cook through easily.I did not pour oil on these & instead saw more control in spraying the pan with Canola Oil & over the top of the fries , so they wouldn't get too dry. I used Cinnamon, some salt, & very little brown sugar. These were so great & they were all gone by the end of the meal.

Goodnight

-Wallflower

What's for Dinner?!

Frittatas!

This ended up being a simple & delicious dinner. Some nights we are all staring at each other saying.."what's for dinner?"-"I don't know what do you want?"and so on. I had actually never had a frittata & wasn't even sure what it was till tonight haha. We have some cook books here, that haven't had much use for a while. Anyways! We made ours with Egg whites, tomato, Zucchini, onions & Mushrooms.

We also added some low fat cheese at the end.

Goodnight!

-Wallflower

4th Weight Watchers Weigh in!

This is exciting & scary because I did very well this week! At least for me thinking about how last week was 2 pound loss that it would be a little less or around that same number.Well, shows what I know!

• This week I lost 7.6 lb's :]
•  Down to 299 lbs! 
• My Total Loss: 20.6 lbs!

Haha it was funny I came into the meeting before anybody & the leader was in the front, so I was just going to get weighed in the front. No problem, I got weighed in the front...(at this point I hadn't seen the scale numbers *not expecting anything special*). The meeting leader says "Wow, let's go to the back and check if that's right". Still not knowing what it was in the first place go to the back & weigh in again. I was thankful since I would sincerely like to know how I'm doing. I'm still standing there looking at 299.8 (OH! That means UNDER 300...uhh yes please, that was my summer goal before I get back to school.  College is starting back up in about 6 weeks! ) & not reacting at all. haha I don't think I realized till she said "Wow, you don't seem surprised or excited!"
- haha anyways, I was of course but it just took me longer than usual to realize what just went on :P

This is how I felt inside!

1st of all I'm scared because I don't know what I did differently this week. * Other than running out of Arizona tea & having to just drink water. BUT!!!- even when I did have Arizona I made an effort to fill half or more of my cup with water. I'm going to look at that more, since that's all I have to go on for now.  I'll look back at my tracker and see what I did differently without realizing maybe!?


Now I just need to keep myself from expecting anything for next week.I'd like to keep from setting myself up for disappointment.

On with the journey

+ The gym was great today. Since it was a pretty stormy afternoon there were more people than usual. I see this cycling class going on *looks kinda intense* & I'd like to try that one of these days before I get back to school.

Tonights Dinner for 4 Points *Plus

Since I'm really not a marinara person most of the time I kept mine plain :] I've been looking online for this brand of  pasta... & I realize now  Mimi's Ravioli actually started these products "Good Health". This Shop is our go to place for getting really great fresh Italian food.

MIMI'S RAVIOLI WEBSITE - if you are a local in South Florida
http://www.mimisravioli.com/goodhealth/gh.htm

I am on the Points Plus program with Weight Watchers & I calculated how much these manicotti logs would be :] 2pts for each log! that's great since it was super filling & delicious.

Nutrition Facts on the back (I write how many points things are on the boxes when possible)

I should make a list some day soon! it will help when I get back to college :]

Plain jane,no marinara sauce and lettuce on the side! this really was great though & I love plain lettuce leaves on the side of most dinners. :]

close up on the insides! & it's whole wheat :] what a deal

• Side Notes!
• Tomorrow is my next weigh in
• I went to the gym & worked out for more than two hours today
• I'll be going tomorrow also , I'm looking forward to working out these days!
• & I'm nurvouse about my weight in.I don;t know why because I haven't done anything wrong @ least not that I know of. It's scary because I can't tell I lost .6 or a pound & so on.

Find out soon enough!

- Goodnight!

Wallflower

Happy 4th of July!

Normally I'd be going to a friends house for the 4th :) this year turned out a little differently & that is okay :)

We didn't grill,like we had planned either! Over the weekend I had looked up a recipe for turkey balls.We had to call in advance to get the ground turkey from the butcher. The recipe I used was from Food Network :


http://www.foodnetwork.com/recipes/giada-de-laurentiis/mini-turkey-meatballs-recipe/index.html
Here is a link to the recipe

mmm!

We need to buy more pam ,instead we used broth to keep them from getting too dry SO that's what's at the bottom of the pan. Baked instead of fried in a pan.

Green & Yellow Peppers, Zucchini & Onions 

I had to modify the recipe since we do keep kosher at my parents.This turned out so great! My dad was very skeptical when we told him we would be having TURKEY BALLS instead of meatballs.He ended up eating fish sticks. Although I did offer him a bit & after he tried the turkey balls he told me he would be a team player next time & eat them with us.HAHA he would only say that if he liked them :)

Something else we were planing did not turn out quite right.. I wanted to make a dessert that would be fresh & something everyone could have. We couldn't find all the ingredients! Maybe another time :P But I still think it's a cute idea *angel  food cake *whipped cream (light) * blueberries * yes please.


Light whipped cream recipe!
http://www.eatingwell.com/recipes/light_whipped_cream.html

I went for a walk today! The gym closed early today :P I didn't get up in enough time.
I did go yesterday though :) & plan to go tomorrow.

Goodnight!

-Wallflower

3rd week weigh in!

This week at my weigh in I went down 2.6 pounds  totaling 12.6. *& yes I'm counting the .6 haha! I don't know exactly how long it's been since I was out of the 300's  but the idea of being out of them :) THAT would be awesome!

Disney is the ultra happy place & any amount lost feels pretty great!  

Now that I've lost 2 this week I feel like this will be the average from now on & that is just fine :} but I'll admit it was cool to have those numbers the 1st few weeks.

It's been getting a little harder. I hate what I look like now & my mom brought up how I haven't seen any of my friends from home since I've been back. I've been home for 8 weeks. This has been a thing with me for a long time , I'll admit I don't feel like I'm worth hanging out with. To sum it all up my self-esteem is close to none existant.


Today seemed more like a bump in the road.

1.) woke up around 8. :)
2.) made myself some egg whites & whole wheat toast *with mushroom & onion! :)
3.) fed my fish :)
4.) ended up in bed in my gym clothes.

all slumberland & no workout makes wallflower a sad girl

I SLEPT from 10-ish to frink'n.... 4 in the afternoon! wow THAT can't happen again.
& this is after a good night's sleep about 8 hours. 15 hours of sleep no gym,no nothing.

I know I don't have to go to the gym everyday & I don't. I think I'm more dissipated in myself because I ended up sleeping instead & I was planning on going. Self sabotage - not worth it & that is what it felt like- to me at least.

Goodnight!

-Wallflower