3rd week weigh in!

This week at my weigh in I went down 2.6 pounds  totaling 12.6. *& yes I'm counting the .6 haha! I don't know exactly how long it's been since I was out of the 300's  but the idea of being out of them :) THAT would be awesome!

Disney is the ultra happy place & any amount lost feels pretty great!  

Now that I've lost 2 this week I feel like this will be the average from now on & that is just fine :} but I'll admit it was cool to have those numbers the 1st few weeks.

It's been getting a little harder. I hate what I look like now & my mom brought up how I haven't seen any of my friends from home since I've been back. I've been home for 8 weeks. This has been a thing with me for a long time , I'll admit I don't feel like I'm worth hanging out with. To sum it all up my self-esteem is close to none existant.


Today seemed more like a bump in the road.

1.) woke up around 8. :)
2.) made myself some egg whites & whole wheat toast *with mushroom & onion! :)
3.) fed my fish :)
4.) ended up in bed in my gym clothes.

all slumberland & no workout makes wallflower a sad girl

I SLEPT from 10-ish to frink'n.... 4 in the afternoon! wow THAT can't happen again.
& this is after a good night's sleep about 8 hours. 15 hours of sleep no gym,no nothing.

I know I don't have to go to the gym everyday & I don't. I think I'm more dissipated in myself because I ended up sleeping instead & I was planning on going. Self sabotage - not worth it & that is what it felt like- to me at least.

Goodnight!

-Wallflower

Ravioli Crazy?

Okay wow...this is looking like I have been living off of pasta raviolis!
This is what we have in the house. I plan on making Chicken tomorrow :] believe me! haha
 Tonight I was making dinner for me and my brother * parents are still out of town * he is pretty supportive & enjoys what I've been making.

MMM ravioli & veggie blend on the side :} I added one regular egg in the veggies for something extra.

There were six raviolis there and I had a guilt free extra helping of the veggies.

I havn't gone for my walk yet, today feels so lazy and slow.I don't know what I did all day.There is still time to walk for at least 10-15 minutes.

I need to get to the gym tomorrow, no matter what! or I'll feel pretty bad.

Goodnight

-Wallflower

Ravioli String beans & lettuce salad!mmm I wish the only thing I wish I had fresh string beans instead of canned :P.

I went to the gym for a few hours today & worked on my cardio & arms. 

TV Time! I love  TLC & STYLE

Recently there has been a significant focus on plus size.I came home & my mom says "Hey! want to watch Extreme Makeover with me!?" I say  sure since I love watching shows like that where you make over someones house for them! I was surprised & later found out she meant Extreme Makeover Weight Loss Edition. I had no idea that was even a show. It's absolutely not reality where everyone can take off that much time to dedicate towards such hard work outs.The people in the show are being compensated for the time they are on the show, allowing them to put forth so much effort & an amazing outcome!

There are always going to be people who don't agree but I really think this show is a great inspiration , for anybody * trying to lose any amount of weight. 

There are so many other shows putting up these kinds of shows. I'm seeing these shows coming out for a reason though, people are watching these shows. For different reasons? sure. curiosity,inspiration... 

I'm watching TLC Say Yes to the Dress BIG BLISS.

Oh! & Randy is adorable! :}

If you aren't familiar with Project Life size on Youtube* I was watching one of Gretchen's videos where she was talking about she would like to see Big Bliss be one show with the regular Say Yes to the Dress. I know what she means, however I can see there is this new culture of Plus size & I can  see why they would label these shows.

Project Lifesize is a great channel!

http://www.youtube.com/user/ProjectLifesize

I would absolutely say this channel was  a big contributor to me starting to accept myself & go on my way to really wanting to help myself get healthy FOR ME.

Goodnight!

-Walflower

2nd week weigh in!

This second week has been great ! &  at the same time I'd like to get the feeling of high motivation that I had my first week. I just need to keep telling myself and really believing it's all up to me.

This was my 2nd week weigh in at Weight Watchers & I lost 4 pounds this week! Everyone is so supportive & I'm really proud of myself! So far it's a total of 10 pounds lost :]

Goodnight!

-Wallflower

My Saviors!

Keeping everything tasting great & really being satisfied is super important.
Personally I've been buying a lot of onions and mushrooms & using them wherever & how ever I can.I've always loved mushrooms and onions are an automatic plus for many foods.

I'm not scared of getting bored of these foods because it is not all I'm eating 24/7 & I fel good about it.there are so many great ways to prepare foods in a healthy tasty  way & THAT IS FUN.

I want pizza so badly! I want to find a really great way to build a guilt free pizza for myself - I'll work on that. maybe it will have some mushroom & onions! :}

Oh.. & I am just very scared of cheese.* I'm thinking that's the big issue with pizza. I really don't mind giving up the bread part , the cheese is a huge killer for me.I can't get past the idea of eating cheese maybe it's a good think but any amount I'm refusing since I've started.Maybe I don't trust myself.


I didn't get to the gym today.I was seeing my parents off on a trip. I did however have time for a refreshing walk around the neighborhood.I timed it & it's roughly about 12-5 depending on how horribly humid it is! 


For what it's worth.... it will be harder for me to get to the gym this week now that I have less convenient transportation.For a week it will be a little difficult but these is no excuse for not walking! & some is better than none in this case.

Goodnight!

-Wallflower

Going out & Less control!

It was my brother's birthday the other day & this is an occasion where we go out to eat & enjoy our nights worry free! Sounds great, right?


I was just worried about finding something i could honestly order & feel sincerely good about what I order for myself. We ended up choosing Outback Steak House because my brother is a big steak eater! Loves it :] Anyways there were absolutely choices for me where I could order something I could sincerely walk home feeling I made the right choices.

The Norwegian Salmon plate with a side of veggies!

This was pretty delicious, I left feeling very good about my choice and also very satisfied. 

Goodnight!

-Wallflower

6 Pounds Lighter this week!- yes please!

Wow, I doubted myself so much! I honestly was prepared for the worst , especially when it feels like nothing is that different. I feel so much better and am much more hopeful. At this Weight Watchers meeting I hear that this first week is usually the easiest?* easier to loose a significant amount of weight -more than the usual 1-2 pounds a week*  This wasn't said to me personally but to the crowd in general.   

Oh yeah! the good news!!!!!!! I lost 6 pounds this week! :] I can't stop smiling. It feels good knowing after hard work something good comes from it all.
I don't think it would be right to expect these results week after week.I'm not going to debbie down the heck out of this though.

My ipod is coming soon! I'm expecting it tomorrow "by the end of the day" Thank you UPS :] I look forward to seeing you at my doorstep. I had my ipod classic for at least 5 years now no problems. Just recently the headphone jack got a little messed up.Now one side you can't hear anything from & no it's not the headphones! I bought a few pairs before I realized it was actually my ipod.{super crazy denial!} or just crazy slow. I'll go with denial. I bought a shuffle for $44.00 AFTER I purchased it I realized I could have looked more and gotten another brand mp3 player for that price.I'll try the shuffle though!

Also! I've had a water revelation.I'm going to admit that I was drinking sodas,and juices & that's about it. I don;t remember the last time I had a glass full of water before this week started...YEAH seriously horrible. I've changed all of that & I'm not looking back!


Today was great! I'm excited to get back to the gym again tomorrow. * I went today also & worked on my arms & cardio :]

Goodnight! & Sweet dreams 

-Walflower