Rosh Hashanah & Weigh-in Update!

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Here's to a 

happy & a healthy sweet new year!

Over the holiday's my  this past week I gained 0.4

Last week's weigh in I lost 2 lbs.

So currently I'm at the total loss # of 51 lbs!

Challah and Honey = my weakness. It's just so good. :P This past week was kind of a "everything is up in the air". No meals were planned and I did lose track of actually tracking my food! Oh boy! 

This next week will be some more holidays..but that will be at the end of the week. I'll be going to the thursday WW meetings instead of my Saturday meetings.

I'm getting to a point where I am not sure if I can continue to afford my monthly fees and WW, the gym ( I was lucky and had my dad helping with the gym before, but I'll start paying for that now). I may be making a choice soon. I'm thinking about working out at home. Taking the dogs for long walks..swimming from home.. anything! This may start in September. I also have some workout DVDs. I always forget I could watch some on youtube as well.

Ha! Oh how I wish.... ( love this show & this man!)

For some reason this past week has felt so strange. It's a feeling as if my motivation is low and I have things to do but no energy to do them. Applying to all these jobs for SO LONG and no real positive responses has gotten to me. I think there is only so much a girl can take. BUT! I'm realizing now that this past week has been miserable because I feel like I'm giving up! So getting back on track will probably just help everything come together, food planning, and job searching.

OH! and Tonight!!!! is Rachael v.s Guy Kids cook off :) I've been seeing the ads for it and am so excited!? haha  SO I'll be watching this tonight with my mom.

It's the small things I guess.

Hoping to get everything going again

also trying not to be discouraged 

-Wallflovver

Weigh-In Triggers & a yummy snack!

TRIGGERS :) YAY!
So, applying for jobs has never been fun.. editing resumes and cover letters for each new application has pretty much been my year. A year..seriously. I can't help but feel a bit bad about myself after being unemployed for this long. I've been working freelance but that's not steady (though it is SOMETHING). Hearing back from employers has been a trigger for me in the past. That's what I've been working on the past few weeks.

Paying attention to these stress triggers has been helping me. At one point I found myself going to take a snack break after every job I applied to.  :/ I found that was a trigger also, I realized I got this nervous feeling after sending my applications in and that would be a trigger. KNOWING THAT HELPS. Instead make sure I have my glass of  arizona green tea /water mixture.

This weeks weigh-in :)

This week=268.8 (-2.8)

Last week= 271.6

Start Weight= 320

Total loss=51.2

It's almost time to start looking for new sneakers. My shoes I have now are just a year old and are at that point where you can see my socks right where my pinky toe is. 

Does anybody else's toes fall asleep while on the arc trainer or maybe the elliptical. I use the arc trainer, but I'd assume this would happen on an elliptical as well? It usually happens around the 20 minute mark??? 

This stuff is great! I love the peach flavor. I've noticed these are kinda ...creamier? not as thick as the original Activia. But in a good way. :) Great snack, I sprinkle a little bit  of granola on top. yum

Hope everyone had a great weekend!

-Wallflovver

Weigh-in!

My meeting was Saturday morning. I lost 2 lbs!  It's crazy how hard it was to just keep myself from going off track. I was very good this past week and tracked everything. 

As far as my mom, we went grocery shopping & I'm happy to say that we got tons of fresh veggies and fruits. :) half a watermelon for $1.00 ? Yes please. 

So, breaking bad and dexter are on at the same times and I don't have a Dvr. :( so ill be watching breaking bad at 9 (now) and dexter at 12. 

Goodnight!

Hope everyone is doing well :)

Wallflovver 

Family health!

Yeah, here i am instagraming my breakfast!

This week was definitely an eye opener. 

1st: last weight watchers meetings my friend told me she had literally just heard her father had a heart attack. He doesn't reside here so she couldn't do anything in that immediate  time. Of course we talked for a while and she says she wants to help her dad be more health conscious. Her attitude in this situation was very positive in a very negative situation. 

( she flew over to her dad the next day and he had a successful safe surgery. He now has a stint in his heart and is recovering. )

This made me think a lot about why we are doing this....

A few days later my mom comes home from a dr. Appointment and tells us she is diabetic now. 

Turns out the past few times shes gone to the dr. They had warned her.I HAD NO IDEA. I know what's done is done and now there is only one thing to do.Continue and help her out. 

BUT! I'm a little upset at myself because I ask how the dr appointments go. I ask her about her aches and pains. All I want is to help and see what we've got to do to fix it. But the responses are usually short and not to detailed. Just a little hurt that she felt she needed to keep it all to herself. 

Her attitude towards the news is keeping me optimistic. Hopefully this can bring a new way of eating in our entire house. Now that it's not just me trying to be health conscious.  Well see. My family is very supportive but my dad insists he needs cookies ( Oreos) in the house.  Oy! 

We've been looking up new foods. Her diet will pretty much change drastically.. For the better. It was always hard to get my mom to try new foods, so I'm hoping health in general will be the push she needs. I'm glad to look up recipes and exercises we can do together. Probably pool workouts because her knees are bothering her? Hmm 

My weigh in is tomorrow! 

Hope everyone had a great week :) 

Wallflovver 

New breakfast idea!

NOT THE BEST PICTURE.... but it's good, I promise!

                              

Well at least for me , it's new! 

I've started making a tasty new side for my eggs. It would be great as a side for dinner or a snack in the afternoon. 

Here's what the recipe calls for:

Chickpeas ( I used one can)

Spinach ( I didn't measure since I love spinach anyways and am making a large batch for my family) but I'd say to keep the amount of spinach a little less than the amount of chickpeas . 

Diced tomato ( half a can)

Garlic (a couple cloves , minced )* I love garlic but sometimes it's too much in the mornings. I didn't add garlic the last few times I've made this.

& finally a tiny bit of cheese, we had a bag of shredded mixed cheese at home...  So I used a bit of that. 

All of these ingredients get heated in a pan. 

I start off with the spinach 1st if its frozen,  if the spinach is fresh add chickpeas and let the chickpeas heat up in the pan for a bit. ( medium heat)

After the chickpeas are heated add spinach ( if not already), diced tomato,  optional* garlic  and then finally some cheese! I let it sit on low for a while... 

This makes a good amount and  pretty filling!  I used most of my ingredients from cans and frozen veggies . I'm sure it's great all fresh as well!

Here's to another phone entry! I wrote something totally different the other day. But of course it wasn't saved correctly! My bad! I remember what I wrote though.. So it'll be saved for another time. 

I'm going to the gym in about an hour. :) 

Hope everyone is having a great week. 

-Wallflower

Weigh-in update!

I'm still using my phone to post. For now it's just easier.  My Internet keeps logging me in and out! ahh! 

I went to my Ww meeting this morning and the leader wasn't there ( we had a sub).. But my friends from Ww that have been busy & one has been sick for a month! I feel much better having these two back in the meetings with me. 

Another yummy looking breakfast idea! 

269.2 was my weight this week!

She calculated -2 lbs but I calculated back home that its -1.6 rather... 

Ah! It confuses me so much when they mix up the numbers. 

Hope everyone has a great weekend!

It's been raining all week here -

Wallflower 

Super Complain-y blog post! Hooray! / friend issues...

I saw this on instagram & thought it looked like a cool idea... Just need some almonds! 

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I wrote an draft entry last night while watching extreme weigh loss! :( I don't see the draft anywhere on my phone app? Anyways... I guess I'll be writing and posting this all at one time.

I had a few things I kind of was having issues with this past week. 

I stayed over a friends house and made it a long weekend since this person lives so far away. 

There have been several times where I come over for the weekend and my friend has pretty much 'double booked'. The situation has turned out to my staying at her family's house babysitting the dogs while they go out for 1.) dinner with her family ( whom I've known since I was in 2nd grade, we are 24 now). 2.) to a dinner ball ((((ate you kidding me?!)

It was awesome watching the family get dressed and ready to leave me home with their dogs.  Both times I had no ore warning or heads up... If I had.. U probably wouldn't have gone that weekend. 

I know most people would think... Wow why don't you say anything?! If you guys have been friends so long why don't you say something? 

I wonder the same thing, I end up feeling so shitty after spending time with this person. They make me feel so insignificant as a friend. 

This journey has actually helped me appreciate myself as a person more. I feel I'm worth more and my time should be spent around time that actually appreciate me. 

I could almost blame myself for not saying anything previously in these situations.. I never even showed that it bothered me previously. I was just so shy and my self-esteem was so low. 

I'm happy to say I don't feel I deserve to be treated like that at all. 

This past weekend I find myself reluctantly going over this friends house. I have very mixed feeling about it but in the end I decide, why it? I m sure this weekend will be fine.

My friend "Alice" wanted me to meet somebody , lets call her "Carol". Carol is  this older women she met recently and has been spending a lot of time with. 

Carol is very sweet and I'm always glad to meet new friends young or old, it's all good. But pretty much what happened was just kind of crazy...

"Alice" and I had gone to pickup "carol". Carol wanted to change before going to dinner, since she is pretty much 65 and expressed wanting to get more comfortable we drove back to carols place for her to change.  She also may have expressed being a bit slower. That's fine, I've always been very patient. 

Alice and I wait downstairs in the car for an hour and a half for carol to change. At that point I just thought it was cute and kinda funny how long it took to get changed. Alice said she knew it would take long... But Alice and I had some time to talk in the car while carol was changing. ( but mostly just seemed like a good time for Alice to check her phone and text)  another not so fun thing that happens often.

Anywho-

We went to a nice little Italian place carol said shed like to go to. I'm always open.. I honestly just wanted the cheapest thing I could get, my bank app wasn't working on my phone:) yay. Haha a slice of pizza was $2.00.  I ate slow because my friends Alice and carol got meals and I am used to sitting and talking for a long time before, during and after dinner. BUT--We sat there pretty much till everyone was gone and the place was close to closing. At this point I'm seeing carol has been THE only one talking, nonstop. She's talented, I've never met anyone who could seamlessly talk for so many hours. 

Then we decided to walk around a bit. We went to a shopping center that is open at night for clubs and bars. We walked around and found a place to sit. I think we actually sat there at around 10 pm.  Can I just say we were sitting with this women for 5 hours. Can I also just say carol was talking nonstop for that many hours. At 1st I was attentive to listen to someone's stories and hear her share some of her life stories. I'm surprised I didn't get her social security number along with her family's. alright so now I'm getting mean... But seriously I don't think I can even accurately describe what those 5 hours on that bench were like.

No joke I feel like I was invisible and was watching Alice and carol on a romantic date. By the end I thought I'd just play on my phone. I NEVER. Ever EVER TAKE OUT MY PHONE TO TEXT , TALK much MUCH LESS TO PLAY A GAME.  I did all of the above. Loudly... Rudely- sighs were made.... comon!!! This was at the 3 and a half hour mark... My patients was running very thin. 

As I'm writing this I'm thinking maybe this doesn't sound like something I should be getting upset over. But who knows. After the night was through. Finally walking back to the car at 2am. 

Carol finally takes a break talking as we walk to the car. 

I----- miles ahead (not actually) but I'm definitely not walking with the two.... 

Alice and carol try and talk to me as if I had just become un-invisible! Oh.... What?! Did my invisibility run out? Hu. ? Weird..

I pretty much ignore the Heck out of the two. I honestly have the hardest time showing people ( friends, not strangers!)  I'm mad. But I think they got the clue. What bothers me is that they probably had no idea why. 

Just to make this clear and for the sake of lists...

Why I'm mad and very confused about my friendship with "Alice":

Plans are supposed to be plans, I've been double booked several times with this person.

Every time I come home, I'm thankful to be back home.... But also come home just upset because I always feel like I was taken advantage of or just taken for granted.

There are other things that bother me just as much... But they get personal and  more complain-y than this.... If that's even possible. 

Since I've typed this with one finger I apologize for any weird words that may have snuck in here with spellcheck! Haha 

Well that's the end for my friend issues... I guess this is me kinda working out my feelings by putting it all out there. 

Not sure this is a good idea... But there are no names and I don't feel like I said anything that horrible... It's just what happened :/

Thanks - hope everyone is having a great week

Wallflower