It's been a while

A "while" is an understatement

I almost wasn't sure about writing again since it's been so long since my last post. I have to get my eating habits back on track. My last visit to the Dr. has snapped me back to reality. I'm super disappointed to say I've gained and am 10 pounds over my highest weight.

Coming back to this blog, writing and keeping track of my goals seemed like a good start. 

It's crazy how you don't see yourself gaining but can feel the changes. I don't know how I've gotten to this point but I'm excited to start getting back on track. 

♡🧡💛💜♡

Weigh-in update! :D Believe-Worthy-Capable & Healthy

What a  great meeting this past week!

Current: 264.8 lbs

This week: -3.4 lbs

Total Loss: 55.2 lbs

Starting: 320 lbs

Since Yom Kippur and my Saturday meeting times didn't mix I went to the meeting on Thursday. I'm not sure I had ever gone at that time..but wow. The ladies and leader on Thursdays at 12 were amazing. The leader Jodie had this way about her that was so positive and fun. She took time to actually make little gift like things to hand out during the meeting. This last weekly had the theme of "believe", kick starting  this lifestyle change with a  good attitude!
She made everyone bracelets that had different words that also carried a theme through the weekly handouts:
Believe   Worthy   Capable   &   Healthy 
I wanted the believe bracelet (because it was pink! & also) because although all of these words are great to describe important changes that have started to come about since the beginning of this journey.. BELIEVE was the one that started everything.
Believe
At one point I used to believe I was stuck. Even purchasing  a size 4x size T-shirt (when I was still 3x) in belief i'd be needing it soon. I hadn't thought twice about why I bought it till I started my journey and realized I was feeling that hopeless.
I started believing in myself when I started to see changes in my progress and saw success with myself. Going to meetings and having support with people who are striving for the same goals has helped me believe in myself.

Hope everyone is having a great week

Wallflovver

Rosh Hashanah & Weigh-in Update!

Photo from KitchenMonki.com

Here's to a 

happy & a healthy sweet new year!

Over the holiday's my  this past week I gained 0.4

Last week's weigh in I lost 2 lbs.

So currently I'm at the total loss # of 51 lbs!

Challah and Honey = my weakness. It's just so good. :P This past week was kind of a "everything is up in the air". No meals were planned and I did lose track of actually tracking my food! Oh boy! 

This next week will be some more holidays..but that will be at the end of the week. I'll be going to the thursday WW meetings instead of my Saturday meetings.

I'm getting to a point where I am not sure if I can continue to afford my monthly fees and WW, the gym ( I was lucky and had my dad helping with the gym before, but I'll start paying for that now). I may be making a choice soon. I'm thinking about working out at home. Taking the dogs for long walks..swimming from home.. anything! This may start in September. I also have some workout DVDs. I always forget I could watch some on youtube as well.

Ha! Oh how I wish.... ( love this show & this man!)

For some reason this past week has felt so strange. It's a feeling as if my motivation is low and I have things to do but no energy to do them. Applying to all these jobs for SO LONG and no real positive responses has gotten to me. I think there is only so much a girl can take. BUT! I'm realizing now that this past week has been miserable because I feel like I'm giving up! So getting back on track will probably just help everything come together, food planning, and job searching.

OH! and Tonight!!!! is Rachael v.s Guy Kids cook off :) I've been seeing the ads for it and am so excited!? haha  SO I'll be watching this tonight with my mom.

It's the small things I guess.

Hoping to get everything going again

also trying not to be discouraged 

-Wallflovver

Weigh-In Triggers & a yummy snack!

TRIGGERS :) YAY!
So, applying for jobs has never been fun.. editing resumes and cover letters for each new application has pretty much been my year. A year..seriously. I can't help but feel a bit bad about myself after being unemployed for this long. I've been working freelance but that's not steady (though it is SOMETHING). Hearing back from employers has been a trigger for me in the past. That's what I've been working on the past few weeks.

Paying attention to these stress triggers has been helping me. At one point I found myself going to take a snack break after every job I applied to.  :/ I found that was a trigger also, I realized I got this nervous feeling after sending my applications in and that would be a trigger. KNOWING THAT HELPS. Instead make sure I have my glass of  arizona green tea /water mixture.

This weeks weigh-in :)

This week=268.8 (-2.8)

Last week= 271.6

Start Weight= 320

Total loss=51.2

It's almost time to start looking for new sneakers. My shoes I have now are just a year old and are at that point where you can see my socks right where my pinky toe is. 

Does anybody else's toes fall asleep while on the arc trainer or maybe the elliptical. I use the arc trainer, but I'd assume this would happen on an elliptical as well? It usually happens around the 20 minute mark??? 

This stuff is great! I love the peach flavor. I've noticed these are kinda ...creamier? not as thick as the original Activia. But in a good way. :) Great snack, I sprinkle a little bit  of granola on top. yum

Hope everyone had a great weekend!

-Wallflovver

Weigh-in!

My meeting was Saturday morning. I lost 2 lbs!  It's crazy how hard it was to just keep myself from going off track. I was very good this past week and tracked everything. 

As far as my mom, we went grocery shopping & I'm happy to say that we got tons of fresh veggies and fruits. :) half a watermelon for $1.00 ? Yes please. 

So, breaking bad and dexter are on at the same times and I don't have a Dvr. :( so ill be watching breaking bad at 9 (now) and dexter at 12. 

Goodnight!

Hope everyone is doing well :)

Wallflovver 

Family health!

Yeah, here i am instagraming my breakfast!

This week was definitely an eye opener. 

1st: last weight watchers meetings my friend told me she had literally just heard her father had a heart attack. He doesn't reside here so she couldn't do anything in that immediate  time. Of course we talked for a while and she says she wants to help her dad be more health conscious. Her attitude in this situation was very positive in a very negative situation. 

( she flew over to her dad the next day and he had a successful safe surgery. He now has a stint in his heart and is recovering. )

This made me think a lot about why we are doing this....

A few days later my mom comes home from a dr. Appointment and tells us she is diabetic now. 

Turns out the past few times shes gone to the dr. They had warned her.I HAD NO IDEA. I know what's done is done and now there is only one thing to do.Continue and help her out. 

BUT! I'm a little upset at myself because I ask how the dr appointments go. I ask her about her aches and pains. All I want is to help and see what we've got to do to fix it. But the responses are usually short and not to detailed. Just a little hurt that she felt she needed to keep it all to herself. 

Her attitude towards the news is keeping me optimistic. Hopefully this can bring a new way of eating in our entire house. Now that it's not just me trying to be health conscious.  Well see. My family is very supportive but my dad insists he needs cookies ( Oreos) in the house.  Oy! 

We've been looking up new foods. Her diet will pretty much change drastically.. For the better. It was always hard to get my mom to try new foods, so I'm hoping health in general will be the push she needs. I'm glad to look up recipes and exercises we can do together. Probably pool workouts because her knees are bothering her? Hmm 

My weigh in is tomorrow! 

Hope everyone had a great week :) 

Wallflovver 

New breakfast idea!

NOT THE BEST PICTURE.... but it's good, I promise!

                              

Well at least for me , it's new! 

I've started making a tasty new side for my eggs. It would be great as a side for dinner or a snack in the afternoon. 

Here's what the recipe calls for:

Chickpeas ( I used one can)

Spinach ( I didn't measure since I love spinach anyways and am making a large batch for my family) but I'd say to keep the amount of spinach a little less than the amount of chickpeas . 

Diced tomato ( half a can)

Garlic (a couple cloves , minced )* I love garlic but sometimes it's too much in the mornings. I didn't add garlic the last few times I've made this.

& finally a tiny bit of cheese, we had a bag of shredded mixed cheese at home...  So I used a bit of that. 

All of these ingredients get heated in a pan. 

I start off with the spinach 1st if its frozen,  if the spinach is fresh add chickpeas and let the chickpeas heat up in the pan for a bit. ( medium heat)

After the chickpeas are heated add spinach ( if not already), diced tomato,  optional* garlic  and then finally some cheese! I let it sit on low for a while... 

This makes a good amount and  pretty filling!  I used most of my ingredients from cans and frozen veggies . I'm sure it's great all fresh as well!

Here's to another phone entry! I wrote something totally different the other day. But of course it wasn't saved correctly! My bad! I remember what I wrote though.. So it'll be saved for another time. 

I'm going to the gym in about an hour. :) 

Hope everyone is having a great week. 

-Wallflower